Sober 2022
In 2021, my final tally was 356 days sober + 9 days non sober. The ultimate goal of living alcohol free, though tantalizing close, still eluded me.
Having a year when I was sober 97% of the days, I can see how my brain has begun to fight back. It's been bumpy, and in the beginning there were more bad days than good. Slowly but surely though, my mood swings have leveled off, my unrelenting anxiety has reduced to something I can deal with and outright panic attacks have largely evaporated.
If 97% sober can have this effect, what effect will 100% sober have?
I owe it to myself to find out.
Having a year when I was sober 97% of the days, I can see how my brain has begun to fight back. It's been bumpy, and in the beginning there were more bad days than good. Slowly but surely though, my mood swings have leveled off, my unrelenting anxiety has reduced to something I can deal with and outright panic attacks have largely evaporated.
If 97% sober can have this effect, what effect will 100% sober have?
I owe it to myself to find out.
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I'm here, but actually, I messed my own plan up. Caved already on the 4th, and went so hard with booze along with extremely strong benzos that they hospitalised me the next day. Christ... Evidently I didn't react to anything... I'm really just a heavy sleeper when on a thousand downers.
Had a seizure at the hospital, all my limbs & more hurt. So, not a great start. Maybe the lesson I needed to learn for the rest of the year... I'm done.
So, 2022 for me so far: 2 days wasted/10 days sober
Had a seizure at the hospital, all my limbs & more hurt. So, not a great start. Maybe the lesson I needed to learn for the rest of the year... I'm done.
So, 2022 for me so far: 2 days wasted/10 days sober
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2022 - 12 sober / 0 non sober
I remain cautiously optimistic for 2022, but months 4 - 8 are when the wheels generally fall off the sobriety wagon for me, so I need to remain on guard.
My AV, after having been mostly quiet, is whispering again. It's a soft whisper and coming from a distance, but it's disconcerting to realize that beast is not yet gone.
This is part of the game the AV plays. I think I'm done with it and any part of it I do sense seems weak and innocuous, but it's actually waiting to catch me in a vulnerable moment. Then, out of the blue and with utmost ferocity, it launches into an all out frontal assault that catches me by complete surprise. Before I realize what's happened, I have a bottle in my hand.
I am increasing my readiness level to defcon 3.
2022 - 12 sober / 0 non sober
I remain cautiously optimistic for 2022, but months 4 - 8 are when the wheels generally fall off the sobriety wagon for me, so I need to remain on guard.
My AV, after having been mostly quiet, is whispering again. It's a soft whisper and coming from a distance, but it's disconcerting to realize that beast is not yet gone.
This is part of the game the AV plays. I think I'm done with it and any part of it I do sense seems weak and innocuous, but it's actually waiting to catch me in a vulnerable moment. Then, out of the blue and with utmost ferocity, it launches into an all out frontal assault that catches me by complete surprise. Before I realize what's happened, I have a bottle in my hand.
I am increasing my readiness level to defcon 3.
Kudos on getting sober again quickly. Sometimes it takes something nasty to get us back on track, and back to 2022
AF free day 37 and feeling pretty good.
I started meditating a few days ago, adding a couple of minutes each day. I've never done that before and I'm finding it surprisingly relaxing. Sort of 'centering'. Hard to describe, but I'm sticking with it.
OK, on to day 38
I started meditating a few days ago, adding a couple of minutes each day. I've never done that before and I'm finding it surprisingly relaxing. Sort of 'centering'. Hard to describe, but I'm sticking with it.
OK, on to day 38
Meditation is one of the tools that I'm finding to be increasingly useful, colin. They say just two minutes of meditation a day is very beneficial to recovery efforts.
Meditation helps create space, so when the AV starts getting loud or my anxiety ramps up I can sit back and look at these things from a distance as a dispassionate observer rather than let them take me over.
I know what you mean by 'centering'. Until I started meditating, I had forgotten I even had a center. Now that I know it's there, I definitely want to get to know it better. The center is calm, the center is peaceful - it is where my real sober self can be found.
Meditation helps create space, so when the AV starts getting loud or my anxiety ramps up I can sit back and look at these things from a distance as a dispassionate observer rather than let them take me over.
I know what you mean by 'centering'. Until I started meditating, I had forgotten I even had a center. Now that I know it's there, I definitely want to get to know it better. The center is calm, the center is peaceful - it is where my real sober self can be found.
That's it. Well said adair
Just saw this thread
I'll join in.,if that's ok...been sober for a solid while...but the more stuff I do, the safer my recovery is...my story was pretty dramatic, so everything for me, everything, starts, continues, finishes with recovery being top priority..
I'll join in.,if that's ok...been sober for a solid while...but the more stuff I do, the safer my recovery is...my story was pretty dramatic, so everything for me, everything, starts, continues, finishes with recovery being top priority..
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