snowboarder1980

Im not proud to share this today. Really depressed about it actually. I went 37 days sober and drank last night. Pretty hungover and not at work like I should be. Im not really sure how it even happened. I just found myself at the package store yesterday evening after work….and I knew better. This morning in my utter pain and shame however, I have recommitted to complete sobriety, and I know I can do this. 6pm today will be 24 hours and I will be happy to say “one” again. Thanks for listening!

Zebra1275

So what is your plan to prevent this from happening again?

In my experience, willpower is pretty ineffective.

dustyfox

Well done for getting back on board!
Do you need to think ahead to possible triggers?
Keep going for a better life - it will be a better life.

Anna

Hi Snowboarder, I'm glad you posted. You had 37 days of sobriety and you can do it again.

It might be a good idea to come up with a specific plan for what to do when you find yourself caught up in a craving.

novips

I could not stay sober till I fully committed to the recovery program set forth in Alcoholics Anonymous. As A.A.'s Big Book states:

Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path. Those who do not recover are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this simple program, usually men and women who are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves.

Nonsensical

Thank you for posting. Staying sober is hard for a while, but it will get easier.
Having things to do when I feel like drinking is key for me.
What do you think you will do the next time you feel like drinking?

Surrendered19

So awesome that you posted about what happened SnowBoarder. All you can do is try to anticipate the same set of conditions presenting itself, which it no doubt will do, and think about making some different moves. You still have your 37 days and that is a great foundation still in place. You still will hit 2022 with 50+ days sober and one slip. A great way to start the new year!!!

RAL

good to see you back

Steely

It happens snowboarder. You are not the first, and won't be the last. To this I can attest out of own experience.

We learn snowboarder. And it sounds like you have learned today.

I know what you mean when you say you don't know how it happened. This is part of the learning too. All we've got to know is that no matter what the circumstance, we do not pick up. It's worth knowing, and will get you home every time.

Dee74

The good thing is you made it back here snowboarder.
The other good thing is that you have even more raw data now to counter the idea that drinking is good for you.

If you feel like you might be falling backwards, commit to posting here first - even of you have to leave the package store to post - do it.

You'll get back every bit of effort you put into staying sober

D

Hevyn

Snow, I did that a few times - until I finally had to admit it was never, ever going to make me happy or help me forget troubles. I always ended up miserable & anxious. No point in torturing ourselves that way. I'm glad you wanted to talk about what happened - it's a good sign. Let try this again. We know you can do it.

Free2bme888

Way to come right back!

For me, my soul is crushed, and I hide in more alcohol and shame.

Never quit quitting🤩

Patcha

Get back on the horse Snowboarder. Write down what you did to stay sober for that 37 days, and start doing it again. Start adding in more recovery skills/tools. Have an honest look at why you decided to drink, and make a plan for when that decision looks like a good idea again.