Day 568 and I don't have anything awesome to say
I am at 208 days and sometimes, including tonight, I feel the urge to drink because maybe this time I would be able to control it. It's that old common trap where the Addicted Voice tries to lure me back in.
Luckily I just know that I won't be able to control it. I know that once I feel that buzz I will chase more of it and drink myself into a drunken stupor. And then tomorrow I will start drinking again, while I begin planning on quitting again, which will take months or years and would be facilitated by an all new desperate low.
I just can't do it. I can't go there again. I hope this resolve continues to stay with me.
Thanks for your post.
Luckily I just know that I won't be able to control it. I know that once I feel that buzz I will chase more of it and drink myself into a drunken stupor. And then tomorrow I will start drinking again, while I begin planning on quitting again, which will take months or years and would be facilitated by an all new desperate low.
I just can't do it. I can't go there again. I hope this resolve continues to stay with me.
Thanks for your post.
Sometimes, no news is good news
In fact I was almost ready to throw in the towel. I'm so glad I somehow came back to my senses and realized my sobriety is the one gift I've been able to give myself and I'm not ready to let that go. They say we don't have to do this alone but I have been forcing myself to do it alone.
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