2muchpain

doing fine. will get through this. Got to remember there are many people in much worse shape then me. I'm a pretty lucky guy in many ways. Got a roof over my head, plenty to eat. Got enough money to pay my bills. Am healthy, except for the usual aches and pains that come with age. I wish my left knee and lower back would give me a break. Ibuprohen is becoming my new best friend LOL. My checkups are always great. I work when and where I want. Trying to break some bad habits this holiday. Its a work in progress but will succeed!! Really no complaints. Just that being so lone just bites. No big deal compared to what others are going through. Plus I'm a pretty good guy LOL. Like the saying goes, I'm too sexy for my shoes, clothes, hair, etc. Now that's a big LOL!!!!. John

fishkiller

That's a much better perspective!

Good to see gratitude taking hold of you.

VikingGF

LOLOLOLOL John! Have a great day!

Alpine

Hang in there John, I hope today finds you in better spirits.

2muchpain

Sure, being alone sucks especially this time of but so is being homeless and living in the streets, not having food or money to pay for electricity to stay warm or not enough money to pay for much needed drugs. I also need to remember why I moved away from my family in Minnesota. It was very toxic and dysfunctional. I really believe that had I stayed there I would not be here today and would of missed out on some great experiences. John

Anna

John, it's great that your perspective has shifted. You sound so much more at peace.

SoberLeigh

Think again, John!

MissPerfumado

What a great shift in thinking, John! I'm so glad to read your updates.

dustyfox

It felt great to read your positive posts!

least

How are you doing today John? Thinking of you.

2muchpain

Thanks for thinking of me. Always nice to know someone has me on their mind!!!! Lots of great news!!! My prostrate cancer checkup came up clean. The ct scan to check my lungs for problems showed no problems but needs to be checked out in a year. Still waiting for cologard results. Considering how I have abused my body for so many years this comes as a big surprise. Don't, know how its possible. Feel pretty lucky. Don't, deserve it. Hope you are doing well and had a great thanksgiving. John

Dee74

I think we all deserve a little good luck man. Congrats on the good health news

D

2muchpain

You are right. Luck had a lot to do with it. Maybe I have good genes lol. But I also made some major changes years ago that might have something to do with my good health. Many moons ago, I moved to another state to get away from my toxic family. Deep down inside, I knew it was causing me serious emotional problems. Quitting teacher added years on to my life. The constant stress and overtime was killing me. I miss both my family and having my own students, but I knew I had to do something if I was going survive. I talked to a friend last May who is very involved with my family. Sounds like things are pretty much the same. Sometimes I regret these decisions especially this time of year but I know I made the right choice. Today, I have no family around me, but I still can work with kids with little stress. I will always be there for my family, but at a distance. Healthier that way, especially with my sister that suffers from schizoprenia. John

Dee74

Yeah, effort plays a part too - either way I'm glad you got away from toxicity.

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Hawkeye13

That’s really great news from your check-up John! So happy to hear this, and I agree you did the right thing stepping back from your toxic FO. I only wish I had been smart enough to do that decades ago—I ended up staying till the end and that’s when my alcohol abuse and health issues really got bad.

VikingGF

Glad to hear from you, John!

fishkiller

Great news on the health front!
I too wonder how I am still alive and healthy.

I just moved to another state, partly for the reasons you left your hometown.
Gotta do what's best for us. Noone else will.

2muchpain

Good luck with your move. I know it isn't, an easy decision but sometimes you gotta do what's best for you. My family never saw my situation as anything to be concerned about but I new different. They saw the dysfunction as normal but I had to do something if I had any chance to have a good life. Sometimes I think its the dysfunction that keeps families together. Its scary to leave cause you know you are bringing that dysfunction with you. I will always have problems because of this, like the social isolation I talked about but I like myself more now and don't around beating myself up all the time. Hope your move goes well. Enjoy the adventure. Johnson's

advbike

Great to hear your shift in thinking, John. Yes, we have a lot to be grateful for.

fishkiller

Thanks John!

I am lucky to have my daughter and grandbabies here in NC so I am not alone but leaving my Mom and Dad so far away is tough.

If you ever want to talk offline you can pm me. I usually check in here throughout the day.
We all need support