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I just need to stick to this why can’t I? I don’t know I feel so strong now but I’ll soon feel different within a few sober days under my belt. It’s self inflicted. I wish I could beat the living **** out of myself. Stop it ******* stop stop it stop it aaaaaaarhh
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Have been where you are, just could not stop, could not stop, could not listen to sense, could not care enough, UNTIL I did.
I don't know what changed. I read somethings here. I stopped.
Please stop. You deserve more. YOU can do it!
I don't know what changed. I read somethings here. I stopped.
Please stop. You deserve more. YOU can do it!
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Disser, try to stop beating yourself up. Instead, focus on specific things you can do to get you past those first few days. Make a list, keep it handy and stick to it. You can do this!
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Life does seem hopeless while drinking until we stop putting it into our bodies and in as little as a few days we start to feel so much better. But some of us go back to it and end up at square 1 feeling so down on ourselves. But we can't give up on ourselves. Never give up. Don't let alcohol win. It's not you it's the alcohol and what it does to us. Mind, body and soul. One day at a time we can beat this x
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I’ve been there too Disser. Many times over. It’s the alcohol talking, not the “real” you. The “real” you wants life and joy, but your real voice gets drowned out by the addictive voice that just wants instant gratification of a drink, regardless of the dire consequences. Sometimes it’s really hard to even know the real you and your real voice is still inside, but it is.
Hang in there, it gets easier and better the longer you don’t drink, it really does.
And the real you gets stronger.
Hang in there, it gets easier and better the longer you don’t drink, it really does.
And the real you gets stronger.
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Hey Disser 
To get sober and stay that way I had to do more work on staying sober than I did on drinking some more.
Apart from posting here every so often, what else are you doing to stay sober?
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To get sober and stay that way I had to do more work on staying sober than I did on drinking some more.
Apart from posting here every so often, what else are you doing to stay sober?
D
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If you are having trouble in those first few days or weeks I think an overload of AA meetings could be the thing.
Flood your free time with meetings.
I would just go in with an open mind. Whatever people believe spirituality don't get put off by it. You don't have to believe anything. It can't be any worse then repeatedly consuming a chemical that is killing you.
It happened so quickly for me. Before AA I had been absolutely convinced for decades that a life without alcohol was not possible for me. A couple of weeks of these meetings and my alcoholism didn't know what hit it.
Not that we are out of the woods in a couple of weeks or a month or 90 days... but a life without alcohol becomes a real possibility.
Flood your free time with meetings.
I would just go in with an open mind. Whatever people believe spirituality don't get put off by it. You don't have to believe anything. It can't be any worse then repeatedly consuming a chemical that is killing you.
It happened so quickly for me. Before AA I had been absolutely convinced for decades that a life without alcohol was not possible for me. A couple of weeks of these meetings and my alcoholism didn't know what hit it.
Not that we are out of the woods in a couple of weeks or a month or 90 days... but a life without alcohol becomes a real possibility.
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Hi Disser, for years I was stuck in that trap too. I kept trying to moderate but ended up going on binges. I finally accepted that I had to stop drinking and let me tell you there was more day 1s than I could count before I finally stopped and truly accepted drinking wasn’t doing me any good. It was just slowly destroying me.
I ended up goin to AA everyday for the first few weeks and then I found recovery dharma which I found to be a better fit for me. Listening and taking with other people who had the same issue was a tremendous help. I found a therapist that specialized in addiction and childhood trauma. I think the key was to bring my addiction out into the light and face it head on.
Much love to you I hope you find peace ❤️
I ended up goin to AA everyday for the first few weeks and then I found recovery dharma which I found to be a better fit for me. Listening and taking with other people who had the same issue was a tremendous help. I found a therapist that specialized in addiction and childhood trauma. I think the key was to bring my addiction out into the light and face it head on.
Much love to you I hope you find peace ❤️
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I have been there too. Keep trying and try to find things to keep yourself busy. I am just over 1 month and it has been a fair amount of work but has been very well worth it. You can do this, just believe in yourself. You deserve happiness.
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