11 years clean...
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Join Date: Oct 2010
Location: Brandon , Florida
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11 years clean...
Wow, I signed up to this forum, right after I got clean, but never posted here. I remember reading the articles, but I never made a post.
Once of the few things I know, is if I want to get or feel better, I have to tell the truth.
Grateful that I found NA, and got clean, and was so active in service and meetings until the COVID. Nothing changed however, except not going to meetings. Everyday I focused on staying clean first, meditation, and applying the steps and principles in my life. But haven't felt connected to the fellowship in a while, and really have no urge or desire to go back to go back to meetings. I believe there are people that cant stay clean without meetings. When I got clean, the vibe was different. I remember being told to * Sit down, shut up and listen, then to work the steps or die. It was harsh , but it was what I needed. And I took it to heart, because my life depended on it, I was in a bad place. And I never stopped looking at me, and my behavior and what made me do the things I do. Since then I do the same things, this is an inside job, and its up to me to want to continue to change, and still keep my sobriety first.
So that truth I mentioned is I'm feeling guilty.
I believe that I still need to talk to others in recovery, to share my story, and tell on myself when needed, and I think this may be a good outlet.
Thank you for being here, and I look forward to hanging around, and trying online support.
Once of the few things I know, is if I want to get or feel better, I have to tell the truth.
Grateful that I found NA, and got clean, and was so active in service and meetings until the COVID. Nothing changed however, except not going to meetings. Everyday I focused on staying clean first, meditation, and applying the steps and principles in my life. But haven't felt connected to the fellowship in a while, and really have no urge or desire to go back to go back to meetings. I believe there are people that cant stay clean without meetings. When I got clean, the vibe was different. I remember being told to * Sit down, shut up and listen, then to work the steps or die. It was harsh , but it was what I needed. And I took it to heart, because my life depended on it, I was in a bad place. And I never stopped looking at me, and my behavior and what made me do the things I do. Since then I do the same things, this is an inside job, and its up to me to want to continue to change, and still keep my sobriety first.
So that truth I mentioned is I'm feeling guilty.
I believe that I still need to talk to others in recovery, to share my story, and tell on myself when needed, and I think this may be a good outlet.
Thank you for being here, and I look forward to hanging around, and trying online support.
I 'm so glad you got free.
01-14-2019
Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Midwest
Posts: 1,217
Thanks for coming sharing this and posting this. I find it inspiring. Congratulations on 11 years. This is a good place to share and talk with others. I’m glad you recognize you still want an additional sobriety tool in your pocket.
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