Recovery blog October 13th 2021
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Recovery blog October 13th 2021
I guess, I want to start with, I am so proud of everyone for being here and posting....wanting to make a change. Also, I want to mention that I LOVE seeing familiar names that are now celebrating some serious time behind them. As I've been on here for just over a year and feel as if I know some of you and your stories, watching you succeed makes me so happy and gives me hope. On that note, this isn't my 1st recovery blog, but it will be my last. Someone PM me and offered some advice about getting sober and one piece of that was a recovery journal. Accountability, to myself and others. I'm not going to rehash my story in depth. I always drank, I stared drinking more during 2020 and suffered from depression and anxiety more then any other years. I have a son, who I desperately want repair any damage my disease has caused to our relationship and I still have a chance to do that. I am married to another alcoholic who does not want to stop, but wants me to be "better"... which means drink in moderation, but don't stop. Ironic. I used to drink in moderation everyday, not since I have tried to quit, I take time off and then go on binders that have caused me embarrassment in ALL aspects of my life. I have health issues due to alcohol. Some of this will sound familiar to others, some can relate to some parts. This is my story and I'm on day 2.
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Hey BTG, so glad to see your blog.. I know how hard you are working at this and I also know that you will gain permanent sobriety, and all the benefits that go along with it. It is a lot harder with a drinking spouse, so kudos for all the success you have had already. You have a lot of self-awareness and honesty, and those are key. I am also sure that your son is very proud of your efforts, even if he may not outwardly display it.
Keep up the great work - you CAN do this!
Keep up the great work - you CAN do this!
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Good morning! For all my moaning and groaning, I really did want to drinking last night. Just to make it all go away. The negative thoughts, the anxiety... well basically the detox symptoms of the first week. I even found my husband's 1/2 gallon of vodka in the garage, but we all know it's not with it and I knew if I could get through the night, today wild be better... just like 2marrow will be better than today. The feelings passed and although I didn't sleep well, day 3 is here. Today should be easier, as that is structured out with little idle time. By the time I'm through it, it will be wind down time and bedtime.
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Good for you to get past that, sounds like a close call!
Still struggling on getting my posts accurate.
Above, ‘different tools’ is what it should have read.
Have a sober day
Still struggling on getting my posts accurate.
Above, ‘different tools’ is what it should have read.
Have a sober day
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Originally Posted by Free2bme888 
Good for you to get past that, sounds like a close call!
Still struggling on getting my posts accurate.
Above, ‘different tools’ is what it should have read.
Have a sober day
Still struggling on getting my posts accurate.
Above, ‘different tools’ is what it should have read.
Have a sober day
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I often look at my husband’s “hidden” vodka bottle in our house. It can be tempting, but I also know for me it is part of my codependent “monitoring” so unhealthy on two fronts.
Well done on not drinking—it should be getting better today and keep improving as you know. Hang in there
Well done on not drinking—it should be getting better today and keep improving as you know. Hang in there
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BTG! Welcome back. YOU CAN DO THIS! Getting sober in a house with other drinkers is not impossible. The one way I was able to get sober when a spouse drinks is to focus on myself. His drinking and what he does is not MY PROBLEM and I will not make it my problem. My relationship with alcohol is my issue to address. I really had to separate the two in order to be successful. Its been 10 years of learning to navigate our drinking, my drinking and his drinking......I had to compartmentalize all that stuff and get down to the question of "What is healthy for me?"
Not saying you are doing any of the above. I just know how hard it is to get sober when there is a spouse who drinks and then the drinking together and all that goes along with that.
I commend you for coming back. I commend you for continuing on with getting sober. Sobriety is not linear for some people and that is OKAY! You are here and you are doing this thing!
I look forward to reading your blog.
Not saying you are doing any of the above. I just know how hard it is to get sober when there is a spouse who drinks and then the drinking together and all that goes along with that.
I commend you for coming back. I commend you for continuing on with getting sober. Sobriety is not linear for some people and that is OKAY! You are here and you are doing this thing!
I look forward to reading your blog.
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Originally Posted by Hawkeye13
I often look at my husband’s “hidden” vodka bottle in our house. It can be tempting, but I also know for me it is part of my codependent “monitoring” so unhealthy on two fronts.
Well done on not drinking—it should be getting better today and keep improving as you know. Hang in there
Well done on not drinking—it should be getting better today and keep improving as you know. Hang in there
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Hi, Backtogood!
October is great time to get sober - there is some magic in the air.
If I may offer some advice from my now 9 years experience - identify your triggers and make a plan how to counter them. Don't leave it to chance.
Cravings have their own schedule, their cues. "I'll figure it out on the go" rarely, if ever, works for cravings. By that time they are usually so strong that the rational mind is in no way capable to stop them.
So, I'd suggest to take some time time and make a detailed assessment of what triggers you, what are your "danger zones", and then get ready - gates closed, sobriety guns are loaded, enemy is not allowed.
Best of luck.
October is great time to get sober - there is some magic in the air.
If I may offer some advice from my now 9 years experience - identify your triggers and make a plan how to counter them. Don't leave it to chance.
Cravings have their own schedule, their cues. "I'll figure it out on the go" rarely, if ever, works for cravings. By that time they are usually so strong that the rational mind is in no way capable to stop them.
So, I'd suggest to take some time time and make a detailed assessment of what triggers you, what are your "danger zones", and then get ready - gates closed, sobriety guns are loaded, enemy is not allowed.
Best of luck.
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Loving your blog idea....it's really helpful I think to help us stay focused during the early days. I started one but have since drank so I abandoned it. I'm staying connected on here though, will probably put my updates into the October thread. I've been on SR only 6 weeks and I've had a number of quit attempts during this time. I've given my bank cards to a friend in order to help myself get the first 30 days under my belt. This may last longer as my recovery isn't strong. I'm looking to build on my recovery each day now. I hope you stay focused and find strength each day to crack this.
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