Daily log 90 days (primary goal)
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Great idea 
You KNOW you can do this 🙂
I don't know about you but feeling a bit down, sluggish and fed up is nothing compared to coming off a bender and it takes ages to put ourselves right after that. Not just hours
Just keep walking through it as you are doing.
This is how I feel sometimes on an hourly basis >>>>>
You KNOW you can do this 🙂
I don't know about you but feeling a bit down, sluggish and fed up is nothing compared to coming off a bender and it takes ages to put ourselves right after that. Not just hours
Just keep walking through it as you are doing.
This is how I feel sometimes on an hourly basis >>>>>
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You supported me when I needed it U4S🙂
Thanks Leadhatter and ever so well done on 12 days
Just think, we will all be able to say "I had my last drink September 2021"
In a really deep and impressive voice in a few years from now
Thanks Leadhatter and ever so well done on 12 days
Just think, we will all be able to say "I had my last drink September 2021"
In a really deep and impressive voice in a few years from now
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Originally Posted by Jupiter11 
You supported me when I needed it U4S🙂
Thanks Leadhatter and ever so well done on 12 days
Just think, we will all be able to say "I had my last drink September 2021"
In a really deep and impressive voice in a few years from now
Thanks Leadhatter and ever so well done on 12 days
Just think, we will all be able to say "I had my last drink September 2021"
In a really deep and impressive voice in a few years from now
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1 minute into Day 7! This latest relapse is my insurance for the next 4 years. My goal is to be totally turned around and self confident, living authenticly by the summer of 2025. Somehow in my heart I know the timings of things and how to make my experience work for me on this journey. The relapse before this lasted around 3 months before I checked into rehab. If I didn't have the strength to turn it back around this time I could've hit a point where I was unable to stop again. That is a scary thought considering we have to wait at least 6 months for rehab in UK. Was I able to turn this latest relapse around because my brain and body had healed a lot during my 14 months sober? Or am I just so disappointed that I picked up and 'polluted' my 40s with yet another relapse? Perhaps my effort today and yesterday just shows me how much I want sobriety. I don't know, these are just some thoughts. And as ever, I like posting to my log. I had a deep relaxation session for about an hour. It was nice to switch into standby mode and then to suddenly know, ah! It's a giant mug of jasmine & green tea I want! 🤍
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So glad you got over the hump you hit this morning. You sound much better!
Back in the game
Have you ever watched the clouds scuttle across the sky on a windy day? That's how I view the passing moods and feelings here in these early days. Just sit back and watch them disappear into the distance.
Hope your tea was nice 🙂
Back in the game
Have you ever watched the clouds scuttle across the sky on a windy day? That's how I view the passing moods and feelings here in these early days. Just sit back and watch them disappear into the distance.
Hope your tea was nice 🙂
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Positivity in the rain 🌧
Thanks Jupiter11. My tea was very nice!
So I'm coming up to 5 hours into day 7. I've relaxed a lot today, eaten quite well and taken vitamins. I miss the brain I had not so long ago....before I used medication temporarily for anxiety and the relapse. It is so hard coming back and that's why I want to continue... it's raining here and I feel disconnected from myself and the people in my life, because of what I have done to my brain with the drink.....still feeling pretty flat but that's okay, I shall think of the next thing I can do to pass another hour or so.
I will share a gratitude list now:
1. Warmth, shelter, comfort!
2. SR support forums!
3. A chance to turn it all around still!
4. 6 solid days sober behind me!
5. The health I have remaining!
6. Hopes, dreams & goals!
7. Privacy, time & space to recover!
8. Rain outside, being cosy inside!
9. Self forgiveness & forgiveness of others.
10. A new day tomorrow - getting some cooking done.
So I'm coming up to 5 hours into day 7. I've relaxed a lot today, eaten quite well and taken vitamins. I miss the brain I had not so long ago....before I used medication temporarily for anxiety and the relapse. It is so hard coming back and that's why I want to continue... it's raining here and I feel disconnected from myself and the people in my life, because of what I have done to my brain with the drink.....still feeling pretty flat but that's okay, I shall think of the next thing I can do to pass another hour or so.
I will share a gratitude list now:
1. Warmth, shelter, comfort!
2. SR support forums!
3. A chance to turn it all around still!
4. 6 solid days sober behind me!
5. The health I have remaining!
6. Hopes, dreams & goals!
7. Privacy, time & space to recover!
8. Rain outside, being cosy inside!
9. Self forgiveness & forgiveness of others.
10. A new day tomorrow - getting some cooking done.
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150 hours...
I'm very pleased to report that within the last half hour I've begun starting to feel relatively normal.....natural balanced thoughts and feelings returning! That was NOT an easy thing to go through - please remember this next time you are in the danger zone. 150 hours of misery, not nice. I was worried I would feel disconnected for many more days. Literally within the last half hour it feels as if my brain neurons have plugged themselves back in and I'm remembering everything about myself and life that I knew before, and the way I felt before. SUCH a relief...!!!
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Originally Posted by KittyMama00
Totally agree with this and I do the same. It feels overwhelming to project out into the future, but I can be in this moment now, not drinking.
You can do this!
You can do this!
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5 hour 40 minute countdown
At 11:56 today I will be 7 full days sober. I will celebrate by going for a walk. During the 5 week relapse I got a couple of days AF here and there, plus 5 days, 6 days, and 16 days - prolonging the torture is what that is, and the longer it goes on the harder it is to come back. I am tired of having to find super human strength, I've had to do it hundreds upon hundreds of times. And this is why long term sobriety is my goal. I have slept for 10 hours and feeling so much better compared to previous few days. So grateful to have my first week in the bag.
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This is great U4S 
You know you can do it, you know you can, you haven't had an easy week but you still did it! You've done it before, lived sober for over a year, which is more than I have done in 20 years.
It's just that lying AV tells people they can't!
I know a lot of people find committing to not drinking day by day easier. But I find that tiresome, as if I have to make a decision every day as to whether I'm going to drink or not. I am finding the "finished with it forever" approach much more helpful. I understand I am probably missing the point of the day by day approach, but I suppose it's just the way different minds approach things.
Judging by your posts this week, you are much much stronger than your AV gives you credit for (remember any doubts that you can do this is AV)
Great going
You know you can do it, you know you can, you haven't had an easy week but you still did it! You've done it before, lived sober for over a year, which is more than I have done in 20 years.
It's just that lying AV tells people they can't!
I know a lot of people find committing to not drinking day by day easier. But I find that tiresome, as if I have to make a decision every day as to whether I'm going to drink or not. I am finding the "finished with it forever" approach much more helpful. I understand I am probably missing the point of the day by day approach, but I suppose it's just the way different minds approach things.
Judging by your posts this week, you are much much stronger than your AV gives you credit for (remember any doubts that you can do this is AV)
Great going
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Thanks to both LeadHatter & Jupiter11. I hope you are both doing OK!
Very pleased to be sat in the sun, one week sober, drinking tea and just being 🤍 thanks to everyone for their messages of support since I joined SR.
Very pleased to be sat in the sun, one week sober, drinking tea and just being 🤍 thanks to everyone for their messages of support since I joined SR.
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