Relapsed hard
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Relapsed hard
Mouthwash and wine. Just back from the store with three more bottles of wine.
It's hard to stay sober when you're being attacked in your head by voices you don't recognize. Sometimes it feels like everyone I pass in in the street is reading my thoughts and plotting to torture and kill me. And then when they start threatening my friends a family, I feel the moral thing to do is kill myself so they'll leave them alone.
It's hard to stay sober when you're being attacked in your head by voices you don't recognize. Sometimes it feels like everyone I pass in in the street is reading my thoughts and plotting to torture and kill me. And then when they start threatening my friends a family, I feel the moral thing to do is kill myself so they'll leave them alone.
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You need to visit your nearest hospital emergency department. If you cannot or will not do that, you need to pick up the phone and call the closest person that you know will come and take you there. You need immediate intervention. Do not wait. Do not postpone it. Do not think it will pass. Please do it now.
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Sorry to hear you are struggling so hard. I know what it is like to think that not being around anymore would be better for everyone, but trust me, it is not. People love you and if you 'check out', this will only cause pain to them. Put the booze down, hydrate and start over. You are worth it! We are all worth it!
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Please call someone who can help you or go to the nearest hospital, taking your own life is not the answer, the loved ones who are left to deal with it will suffer beyond words believe me I've been the one who was left with that, please get help.
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There is no help available. There's audio implants in my hears and a mind reading device in my vocal chords. No one believes me only alcohol can give me peace. In thinking of going up to Dublin to get heroin and just .. drift off
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Results - 26 Hospitals/Clinics found in Dublin, Ireland.
Address: Unit 6A , KCR Industrial Estate , Kimmage , Dublin , Ireland. Tel: +353 1 490 7556 Web: Visit Website AeroMedevac Ireland
Address: Suite 23 , Beacon Court , Sandyford , Dublin , Ireland. Tel: +353 1 293 367 Fax: +353 16 335 035 Web: Visit Website Ahsan Anaesthetist Ltd
Address: Beacon Court , Sandyford , Dublin D18 , Ireland. Tel: +353 1 293 6600 Web: Visit Website Beacon Hospital
Get to a hospital or phone them
Address: Unit 6A , KCR Industrial Estate , Kimmage , Dublin , Ireland. Tel: +353 1 490 7556 Web: Visit Website AeroMedevac Ireland
Address: Suite 23 , Beacon Court , Sandyford , Dublin , Ireland. Tel: +353 1 293 367 Fax: +353 16 335 035 Web: Visit Website Ahsan Anaesthetist Ltd
Address: Beacon Court , Sandyford , Dublin D18 , Ireland. Tel: +353 1 293 6600 Web: Visit Website Beacon Hospital
Get to a hospital or phone them
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You need to get some help for the voices obviously, you know this already. I'm not sure mouthwash is the way to go, not that i'm advocating drinking wine but the latter has got to be better for you than the former. Try and look after yourself by eating, getting some rest and try and take your mind off things if you can.
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Originally Posted by Mummyto2 
I just thought is it Dublin in Ireland as I don't know of another Dublin, please phone someone family or friends neighbour's anyone
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There’s some good advice here FF.
Sometimes no matter how we try we can’t deal with everything ourselves.
Your parents must surely know there’s something off with you - ask them for help to get you the appropriate medical help.
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Sometimes no matter how we try we can’t deal with everything ourselves.
Your parents must surely know there’s something off with you - ask them for help to get you the appropriate medical help.
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FF- The only way through this is to seek medical help.
I can see you need a network of professionals to help you through what you are experiencing. What you are experiencing is not normal or healthy for you or anyone. This requires medical help. I do hope you make the right decisions.
I can see you need a network of professionals to help you through what you are experiencing. What you are experiencing is not normal or healthy for you or anyone. This requires medical help. I do hope you make the right decisions.
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FreedomFries, man, I am so sorry you relapsed. Big hug for you. I hope you can put the wine down.
Remember a week ago you were doing great. The voices were diminished and you were healthy and motivated. Walking, eating well, planning school..
Then they changed your meds.. and the voices came back. It's important that you try to get back to that baseline where you were before. If you didn't keep notes, look through your last thread. Talk to the docs and tell them what happened.
Please don't make it worse, man. You don't need to lose the benefits of all that sober time, you can do this.
Remember a week ago you were doing great. The voices were diminished and you were healthy and motivated. Walking, eating well, planning school..
Then they changed your meds.. and the voices came back. It's important that you try to get back to that baseline where you were before. If you didn't keep notes, look through your last thread. Talk to the docs and tell them what happened.
Please don't make it worse, man. You don't need to lose the benefits of all that sober time, you can do this.
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People here care about you and these posts scare and concern us. You say “there is no help available”. You’re either lying or greatly mistaken. Your parents can find you help. Just ask and stop with the BS.
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