SoberLeigh

Did you talk to your Dad, freedomfries?

freedomfries

I don't really wanna go asking for money so soon after a bender, especially since he's already agreed to pay for my tuition and dental treatment I need.

In saying that, I have been giving him €100 rent a week for the last few years and he's told me on numerous occasions he's put money aside for me if I need anything. They don't have a mortgage anymore.
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I think I'll give it a few weeks. I'll be more comfortable when the drinking is less fresh in his mind. And I would like to give the max dose of the anti psychotic injection a few weeks to see if it works before I look into a private psychiatrist. It's only been 13 days and it can take up to six weeks for the full effect.

Dee74

Well I don't think you should wait, but its up to you.

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freedomfries

Well I found my mirtazapine. They were in my jeans strung on the floor. Not sure why I felt the need to put them there in a blackout.

555Lynn555

FF I am absolutely thrilled to find you back and in a better state of mind. I was very concerned. You obviously have to make your own decisions for your own reasons but having traveled this road with my son for the last decade, I truly believe you have received some really excellent suggestions here. I know hospitalization is scary and no one wants to go--ever--for any reason. However, the crisis you just went through was life-threatening in more than one way and they can do things inpatient that they cannot do outpatient. They can stabilize you and your medication. If you just cannot bring yourself to go in this moment, please consider it for the future BEFORE it gets to the level you were just at again. Talk to your parents---about everything---they love you unconditionally.

freedomfries

I have a GP appt tomorrow week.

I'm going to ask him to increase the lexapro. I think he'll say yes.

I'm going to ask him to prescribe olanzapine (an anti psychotic). He'll definitely say no to that and tell me to talk to my psychiatrist.

I'm going to ask to be referred to a private psychiatrist. I assume that won't be a problem.

I told my dad I'd be asking to be referred to a private psychiatrist and straight away he said "I'll pay for that." without me asking to borrow the money.

freedomfries

I've been asking the engineers on Reddit about my future. I'm really looking forward to the future for the first time in years. I'm picturing good mental health, a degree, a job and sobriety.

I'm going to work really hard in college, get good results and try and start a career. I only have 75% of 4th year to complete and I'll have my degree. If I stay sober and get my meds sorted, I can do it.

Dee74

Its all sounding good FF

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freedomfries

Too good. I hope I don't self sabotage.

Dee74

I was afraid of things getting too good as well.
I kept doing all the right things and I got over it

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MythOfSisyphus

I hope this is a new beginning, @freedomfries!

freedomfries

I'm going to a Hearing Voices meeting on zoom in half an hour. Will see if it helps.

freedomfries

I left the group early. I felt they were ******* with me. Could be my paranoia.

venuscat

Why did you feel that way? What was happening? xx

freedomfries

There were two new people. It felt suspicious. Like the joined because they knew I'd be there.

venuscat

Well, it does sound as if that might have been paranoia kicking in....especially after so much caffeine today. I wonder if it might be a good idea to drink some water before bed. s xxx