Voices are back. Not sure how I'm going to stay sober dealing with this
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The pharmacy are going to think I'm a junkie.
The GP prescribed Ativan, I think til Monday.
Then the psych nurse called and said the psychiatrist prescribed Ativan for three weeks.
So now the pharmacy received two benzo scripts from two different doctors.
My mother is going to collect it. I asked her to explain what happened and just take the psychiatrist's script.
The GP prescribed Ativan, I think til Monday.
Then the psych nurse called and said the psychiatrist prescribed Ativan for three weeks.
So now the pharmacy received two benzo scripts from two different doctors.
My mother is going to collect it. I asked her to explain what happened and just take the psychiatrist's script.
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The GP gave me a letter to bring to the psych ward if things get bad. It makes.me sound like a complete trainwreck. "HepC, bipolar type 1... History of injecting methamphetamine, ketamine, ecstasy, cocaine. Cannabis use. Binge pattern drinking"
All that is in my file forever even though it doesn't apply anymore.
All that is in my file forever even though it doesn't apply anymore.
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My sobriety is so fragile. It'd just be a matter of time before I drank if I didn't get Ativan today. I think if the anti psychotic ends up working I should be ok. If not...
I know you'll say I'm being "terminally unique", but I think when you're dealing with psychosis and alcohol can make it go away, it adds an extra challenge staying sober.
I know you'll say I'm being "terminally unique", but I think when you're dealing with psychosis and alcohol can make it go away, it adds an extra challenge staying sober.
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My understanding is that withdrawal from alcohol can intensify psychosis.
It just isn't a good idea to go backwards FF....you want to go to college and finish your degree. xx
It just isn't a good idea to go backwards FF....you want to go to college and finish your degree. xx
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FF, I'm really glad you are getting through this. I hope you read this quote and take it to heart. 
"I am not everything that has ever happened to me, I am everything I became while I healed. Stronger but softer. Focused but not obsessed. A teacher but still a student. I am not broken, I am beautiful. I’m a survivor." ~CWpoet
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Originally Posted by Anna 
FF, I'm really glad you are getting through this. I hope you read this quote and take it to heart.
"I am not everything that has ever happened to me, I am everything I became while I healed. Stronger but softer. Focused but not obsessed. A teacher but still a student. I am not broken, I am beautiful. I’m a survivor." ~CWpoet
"I am not everything that has ever happened to me, I am everything I became while I healed. Stronger but softer. Focused but not obsessed. A teacher but still a student. I am not broken, I am beautiful. I’m a survivor." ~CWpoet
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The GP gave me a letter to bring to the psych ward if things get bad. It makes.me sound like a complete trainwreck. "HepC, bipolar type 1... History of injecting methamphetamine, ketamine, ecstasy, cocaine. Cannabis use. Binge pattern drinking"
All that is in my file forever even though it doesn't apply anymore.
All that is in my file forever even though it doesn't apply anymore.
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Good morning. Day 129. Went for a 6km walk and had a healthy breakfast.
Rang the pharmacy yesterday and they still haven't received the psychiatrist's script. But the GP script should hopefully last a couple of weeks so no rush.
Rang the pharmacy yesterday and they still haven't received the psychiatrist's script. But the GP script should hopefully last a couple of weeks so no rush.
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I'm glad you're working a plan, @freedomfries!
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Just back from collecting my welfare. Normally my dad collects it because of my anxiety but I might as well since I'm on Ativan. Maybe if I try to expose myself to the outside world more while I have Ativan, I won't be so anxious when I'm off it. I need to deal with my agoraphobia before college, even though I think I only have to attend once a week, the rest is online.
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Well I bought wine. Better than Listerine. Only one bottle. I think my country guidelines are <8 units a night and <21 units a week for men. This bottle is nine units so close enough to the health guidelines. Wouldn't be the worst relapse in the world. I could wait til 9:30pm to start drinking so it'd be too late to buy more.
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You should dump out the wine.
We do not react to alcohol like normal people. Nothing good is going to happen if you drink wine.
Listerine would probably be worse. I didn't think they even put alcohol in it anymore. The chemicals in it are not designed for consumption so that could turn out even worse.
Maybe some meditation. Control what can control right now. Start with your breathing. Slow down your breathing, slow down your heart rate, slow down brain activity.
Not sure where you stand with the higher power thing. Possibly some Taoist philosophy could help out. I put every religious idea i had learned on the back burner, wiped the slate clean and started over.
You haven't come all this way to mess it up now.
We do not react to alcohol like normal people. Nothing good is going to happen if you drink wine.
Listerine would probably be worse. I didn't think they even put alcohol in it anymore. The chemicals in it are not designed for consumption so that could turn out even worse.
Maybe some meditation. Control what can control right now. Start with your breathing. Slow down your breathing, slow down your heart rate, slow down brain activity.
Not sure where you stand with the higher power thing. Possibly some Taoist philosophy could help out. I put every religious idea i had learned on the back burner, wiped the slate clean and started over.
You haven't come all this way to mess it up now.
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I hope you'll reconsider drinking that bottle @freedomfries. I know you're struggling but nothing good will come of drinking.
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I honestly do not know what to say ~ the point of getting the Ativan was to stop you feeling so anxious from the voices, which it did. You went out by yourself to collect your welfare. So....what now? Back on the rollercoaster with booze? This is a very bad idea dear FF 
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