countrystix

I'm simply tired. Not much to say, other than it sucks to go some days and then regress. Hopefully it helps someone else. So much wisdom here...but you have to take advantage of it.

Dee74

I was tired too countrystix - tired of relapsing, tired of the effort to stay sober…but I made myself post here daily - or multiple times a day - especially when I felt like my recovery was in danger.

I know suggesting more work when you’re tired may not sound like great advice but you me everyone - we are our own defence against drinking again.

Others can help - but I need to tell them we’re in trouble - before we drink.

I know it’s exhausting - but this is not as good as it gets - don’t get discouraged - it gets better so long as we stay in recovery

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Patcha

I think every person on the planet is a special kind of tired these days. In addition to our regular program of being tired. It's good to see you keeping on keeping on. Things really do get better the further away you from your last drink.

GottaBeKidding

This early sobriety thing really is a tough row(only a little over two weeks myself). The last couple of chaotic years haven't made anything easier. When I first found SR and posted, you were one of the first that replied with encouragement. Glad your still here.

aasharon90

Recovery is mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritual
growth. I had to learn what each was and how addiction
affected them in me.

So many lessons to be learned and practiced on a daily
bases, sometimes just going thru the motions until they
began to stick. Some lessons one step forward and a few
steps back.

However, i kept moving forward with willingness, keeping
and open mind and being honest with myself and those
around me.

Checking my hunger, anger, loneliness and tiredness.

Did I take care of those personal needs to help me be strong
inside and out.

Using my program of recovery to help me maintain my
sobriety, my physicians if needed to continue on with a
clean bill of health from head to toe.

We all start with a day one, crawling before we can walk.

Don't be in a hast or hurry. Take your steps a day or minute
at a time, taking care of what's important at the moment first,
and if that is all you can do today, then that is an accomplishment.

Hold onto your recovery lifelines and enjoy the journey
all to the best of your human ability.

countrystix

In case it helps anyone else...

I knew about H.A.L.T, however I had to read about it again. I think what happened to me this time is I was doing well at 15 days without any thoughts of drinking. Then I let myself get tired (too much caffeine and lack of sleep), hungry, and then had a small argument with my wife who is so supportive, so I was "angry". I don't even remember what the argument was about it was that insignificant. So I said I'm going to go get myself a drink. Made that poor decision within minutes.

To top things off I got a clean bill of health from blood work and a CT scan. So what do I say to myself? It's OK to drink again. Instead of taking it as a gift. One more poor decision.

And I didn't post here because I knew it would stop me.

So now I can stop cold turkey again or most likely taper over the next couple days with some help and then hopefully get back on track again.

countrystix

Sharon, you literally posted as I was composing my last post. Thank you so much, and to everyone else.

Free2bme888

Thanks countrystix. I’m in the same boat. It’s tiring. I’m tired of myself. .

let’s do it together.

deal?

off to work soon.....

aasharon90

Alcoholics in recovery quickly learned right off the bat
that in order to achieve success in continuous sobriety,
there is no tapering involved.

It has to be complete abstinence. No alcohol period.
No controlling, toxic, poisonous substance in or around
us. Period.

I had to learn this. And I did those first 28 days I spent
in rehab being taught about addiction and it's affects on
my own mind, body and soul.

This place as I reflect on it today, gave me a head start
in clearing away the fog and opening my mind to the process
it would take for me to learn how to live life day after day
addiction free.

Those chains of addiction over time loosened and fell
off me so that I could live a more rewarding life healthy,
happy and way of honest, never wanting my misery of
addiction refunded back to me.

Once i took my last drink 30 yrs ago, the word tapered
was never used. Of course 28 days with no alcohol
to reach for in this controlled environment gave me a good
start to learn that once i left alcohol, i need not have to pick
it up again as long as I held onto my recovery support and
lifelines.

To incorporate the tools and knowledge of my addiction
and recovery taught to me in all areas of my life.

Since then, I never found it necessary to pick up alcohol
thinking that it would make life's sometimes difficult situations
better. Those recovery tools have helped me stay the course
remaining teachable, because we never stop learning new
helpful exciting ways to enjoy the gifts life gives us on a
daily bases.

countrystix

I should have responded yesterday Free, but yes, that would be great to have that kind of extra mutual support...so deal. I am struggling today and as I go into the weekend as we will have visitors all weekend. I know, as Sharon mentioned too, I need to go with complete abstinence. I'm trying to gear up and wrap my head around another 3-4 days minimum of detoxing.

Your observation that you're tired with yourself resonates with me. I feel the same. As I've tried to read and research more one suggestion was that we have to love ourselves. It's hard to do when you're tired of yourself, but it makes sense.

dustyfox

As soon as I stopped drinking after 30 years of mostly heavy drinking I stopped being tired of myself -I am still tired - but not of myself - I hope you make the change!

CaptainHaddock

Rooting for you countrystix. I think it was a good idea to start your own thread. Posting here daily and sharing, regardless of whether I was feeling good or bad, struggling or not, made a big difference for me. You can get through this weekend without drinking. I bet you will feel much better by Monday already.

countrystix

My goal is to have day 1 on Monday (I drank today.). I will most likely be a wreck for the entire day and most likely two or three. I may (will) need some support.

I read a lot of posts today. So much good advice and folks in the same spot or that have preferably moved on . Sometimes I think we could just use a cookie cutter to talk about all our issues and then how to try to address them. Very inspiring to read some of the posts from long term sober people.

The reason I am posting tonight is because I just took a walk with one of my dogs. Incredibly loyal. But when I started out I was feeling all sorry for myself. When I was the one that embarrassed folks and myself last night and wasn't nice. In fact, feeling sorry for myself is complete BS. So I need to recognize what I have, and practice gratitude.

This isn't coming out the way I would like it too, but basically I really appreciate what everyone shares here, and all the support given.

Introvrtd1

countrystix….I was sick…AND TIRED…Of being sick n tired. This finally led me to quit drinking….

Hopefully our fatigue will ease over time

lessgravity

I think everyone who finally got sober was once exactly where you were. That frustration with where you are again, that desire for things to change - you need to focus in on and enlarge that. And the drive in you that keeps re-emerging, bringing you back here again - focus in and enlarge that too.

There's a better life here, just waiting for you.

doggonecarl

Why Monday unless you plan on drinking on Sunday? A plan to quit means quitting. Monday won't be easier than Sunday. And drinking tomorrow means you could just keep kicking that quit date further down the road. So the sooner the better...though your addiction will tell you otherwise.

anxiousrock

I hear you on being tired and all I can say is the less you drink and the longer you are sober, the better it gets you'll be less tired.

aasharon90

Look into good nutrition that will feed your mind and
body. Research a list of foods that are high in protein,
and low in carbohydrates. Less fat and low sodium.

There so much junk foods out there for the taking,
but with research, we are able to go to our grocery
stores and locate those special, healthy foods that
will keep us healthy inside and out.

Doing the footwork results in achieving healthy minds
and bodies in our sober living.