Day 4
Day 4
Day 4 here. Have been to meetings for 4 days in a row. Hubby also hasn’t drank since Friday (when I fell) and I told him I needed his support. But he just now asked me if I was going to be mad if he drank a few beers. So I said “I guess not” and now he’s on the way to the store. 😣 ugh. I was feeling really strong until now. I won’t drink tonight. I know we’ve all already had this discussion about my husband drinking and that I need to focus on me. But it’s just so hard. I wish I was t so F-d up in the head.
You're not any different than any of us when we first quit.
It takes a little concentration but you can still stay sober regardless of what others do around you. I would say that's a very important life skill in general...not going along with others when you know something isn't good for you.
I have a little sticky note that says, "Do only that which is good for you."
I wouldn't say another word to your husband about it. You don't need to be in an argument right now and it is his business if he wants to drink. You can stay busy in another part of the house, or go somewhere ( a neighbor's? the store? a long walk? )
It takes a little concentration but you can still stay sober regardless of what others do around you. I would say that's a very important life skill in general...not going along with others when you know something isn't good for you.
I have a little sticky note that says, "Do only that which is good for you."
I wouldn't say another word to your husband about it. You don't need to be in an argument right now and it is his business if he wants to drink. You can stay busy in another part of the house, or go somewhere ( a neighbor's? the store? a long walk? )
Maybe ask him not to drink in the house? Or in front of you? Geez,, Day 4.. you're in a vulnerable period, I personally see nothing wrong with asking for a little cooperation.
I wish I was t so F-d up in the head.
Bimini Blue - we didn’t argue about it. He asked, I answered and he is drinking. We also have an unexpected guest for a few days which isn’t making things any easier (heavy drinker)
advbike - I know right? That’s my thinking.
Patcha - that’s a great way to look at it.
Surprisingly I don’t have an urge to drink or cravings except for the fleeting thought when I posted here. I just made guacamole and now he’s grilling fajitas.
thanks you guys
advbike - I know right? That’s my thinking.
Patcha - that’s a great way to look at it.
Surprisingly I don’t have an urge to drink or cravings except for the fleeting thought when I posted here. I just made guacamole and now he’s grilling fajitas.
thanks you guys
I don't think its helpful to put ourselves down. We have a problem, sure but we can beat it.
I know its disappointing to you your husband is drinking, but that's his journey. Your journey involves not drinking.
As long as you can find support and use it when you need it, you;re not alone, and things will not be so hard Jillian.
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I know its disappointing to you your husband is drinking, but that's his journey. Your journey involves not drinking.
As long as you can find support and use it when you need it, you;re not alone, and things will not be so hard Jillian.
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Just an update. I did not drink last night am on to day 5 now. I guess yesterday was just a little bump in the road and I’m sure there will be many many more. I do still feel determined to stay sober, I just think I was disappointed yesterday when my husband caved and drank. And I eventually did have to separate myself from him once he got to that point as he was not desirable to be around. I can’t wait to see the physical changes I make by being sober, That’s the vain part of me coming out. But I’ve really let myself go and excited to get back to the best I can be.
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I am with you Jillian! Day 4 for me too. After a horrible relapse after almost 3 months. I am going to seriously follow you and your journey because you are similar to me. I haven't been to a meeting due to certain issues which you can read about in previous posts. Instead I am exercising. I had 4 back surgeries but 5 days ago my tolerance dropped, I fell asleep at my desk and smashed my face hard. My older son had a hard time getting me up and at least to the couch. He still isn't talking to me. So I'll stay with you and day 4 and we will get to day 5!
Day 4 here. Have been to meetings for 4 days in a row. Hubby also hasn’t drank since Friday (when I fell) and I told him I needed his support. But he just now asked me if I was going to be mad if he drank a few beers. So I said “I guess not” and now he’s on the way to the store. 😣 ugh. I was feeling really strong until now. I won’t drink tonight. I know we’ve all already had this discussion about my husband drinking and that I need to focus on me. But it’s just so hard. I wish I was t so F-d up in the head.
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Day 5 is great! I've been there, we all have been there, it's really hard I know.
I am sorry that your husband is drinking, but, if you think of it this way, alcohol will always be around, it's available everywhere. It is a tough time for you, but please don't use anyone else's, including your husband's drinking, as an excuse for you to go back to the alcohol.
If you have read any of my posts, you will know that I'm possibly in deep trouble medically because I ignored my doctors and haven't followed up with my appointments and I kept drinking. Please don't end up in medical trouble. It's hard for me to talk about, but I could end up in a place where i need a liver transplant -I can't believe I just wrote that, that is scary! I could end up there and not be a good candidate or just not get one and I could die and I'm only 52 with two beautiful kids, 6 and 11. I want to be around them and love them and be a part of their lives more than any drink.
Please read the book: Alcohol Explained by William Porter. I got the Audible version and it has helped me more than ANY self-help book, or stop-drinking book than I have ever encountered. I wish I would have understood what he talks about 20 years ago. You can get it here: Audible and here: Amazon And he has his own website: Alcohol Explained
I hope I am not being an insensitive jerk, I don't mean to be. Please hang in there, it's your life, your journey, and I hope and pray for you.
-Max
I am sorry that your husband is drinking, but, if you think of it this way, alcohol will always be around, it's available everywhere. It is a tough time for you, but please don't use anyone else's, including your husband's drinking, as an excuse for you to go back to the alcohol.
If you have read any of my posts, you will know that I'm possibly in deep trouble medically because I ignored my doctors and haven't followed up with my appointments and I kept drinking. Please don't end up in medical trouble. It's hard for me to talk about, but I could end up in a place where i need a liver transplant -I can't believe I just wrote that, that is scary! I could end up there and not be a good candidate or just not get one and I could die and I'm only 52 with two beautiful kids, 6 and 11. I want to be around them and love them and be a part of their lives more than any drink.
Please read the book: Alcohol Explained by William Porter. I got the Audible version and it has helped me more than ANY self-help book, or stop-drinking book than I have ever encountered. I wish I would have understood what he talks about 20 years ago. You can get it here: Audible and here: Amazon And he has his own website: Alcohol Explained
I hope I am not being an insensitive jerk, I don't mean to be. Please hang in there, it's your life, your journey, and I hope and pray for you.
-Max
Day 5 is great! I've been there, we all have been there, it's really hard I know.
I am sorry that your husband is drinking, but, if you think of it this way, alcohol will always be around, it's available everywhere. It is a tough time for you, but please don't use anyone else's, including your husband's drinking, as an excuse for you to go back to the alcohol.
If you have read any of my posts, you will know that I'm possibly in deep trouble medically because I ignored my doctors and haven't followed up with my appointments and I kept drinking. Please don't end up in medical trouble. It's hard for me to talk about, but I could end up in a place where i need a liver transplant -I can't believe I just wrote that, that is scary! I could end up there and not be a good candidate or just not get one and I could die and I'm only 52 with two beautiful kids, 6 and 11. I want to be around them and love them and be a part of their lives more than any drink.
Please read the book: Alcohol Explained by William Porter. I got the Audible version and it has helped me more than ANY self-help book, or stop-drinking book than I have ever encountered. I wish I would have understood what he talks about 20 years ago. You can get it here: Audible and here: Amazon And he has his own website: Alcohol Explained
I hope I am not being an insensitive jerk, I don't mean to be. Please hang in there, it's your life, your journey, and I hope and pray for you.
-Max
I am sorry that your husband is drinking, but, if you think of it this way, alcohol will always be around, it's available everywhere. It is a tough time for you, but please don't use anyone else's, including your husband's drinking, as an excuse for you to go back to the alcohol.
If you have read any of my posts, you will know that I'm possibly in deep trouble medically because I ignored my doctors and haven't followed up with my appointments and I kept drinking. Please don't end up in medical trouble. It's hard for me to talk about, but I could end up in a place where i need a liver transplant -I can't believe I just wrote that, that is scary! I could end up there and not be a good candidate or just not get one and I could die and I'm only 52 with two beautiful kids, 6 and 11. I want to be around them and love them and be a part of their lives more than any drink.
Please read the book: Alcohol Explained by William Porter. I got the Audible version and it has helped me more than ANY self-help book, or stop-drinking book than I have ever encountered. I wish I would have understood what he talks about 20 years ago. You can get it here: Audible and here: Amazon And he has his own website: Alcohol Explained
I hope I am not being an insensitive jerk, I don't mean to be. Please hang in there, it's your life, your journey, and I hope and pray for you.
-Max
I will check out Williams book. I’ve read many including Allen Carrs Easy Way to Control Alcohol (I believe same concept as the one you suggested). It baffles me that I understand everything and have this huge desire to quit but kept drinking!
Porter's book really helped me too Jillian. It's just nuts and bolts how it works from a technical/physiological perspective.. not all the mumbo jumbo and character defect stuff. Once you understand how alcohol works, and the addiction process it's so obvious what happens to us.
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