9 months
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Sober Fam you have made my day. THANK YOU for the support.
Being able to come here everyday and participate brings me a lot of joy. We are meant to be happy. Getting to HAPPY does require some intense changes. We can change our lives one day at a time.
I do hope the rumination cycle stops. Rumination is the word. I've started singing really loudly, chanting, putting my earphones on......Yes, repeating a mantra. The only person that I can change is myself. Putting more effort into my life and knowing that my work is not my life. I got a bit caught up in "work" being my life. I realized the focus I had was not on the right things and so I'm slowly but surely freeing myself. They say knowing is half the battle. I mean.....maybe
I know I ruminate and I know it causes me to feel dis-ease. I apply the tools and do the things but I still go there. Then I catch myself and I stop. Then I go there. Stop. GO, Stop. Its a bit maddening.
I would like to extract the "rumination" portion of my brain out and dump it in the garbage where it belongs. It serves no purpose. I don't benefit from this at all. I ruminate on unsolved issues with my work and try to solve the issues with my work but they don't get solved and its just crazy town. Anyways, Rome was not built in a day and I surely don't think that this head thing is going to change as quickly as I would like it too. I am making progress ....its just real slow slow slow progress. I think there is something that I am not accepting. What do I know?
Maybe the goal should be to have a least 3 days where I intensely focus from 7:50 am until 9am on singing and chanting. Set a timer and go for it. So......Ya.....Here I am rambling about a circular thought pattern on the internet!
Its good to know I am not alone and good to know that others have experienced this and now they are free. I will get to that Freedom! I am going to get there. Im ******* determined.
This has been on my mind for awhile and I don't quite know how to talk about it in a cohesive manner. Thanks for reading!
Being able to come here everyday and participate brings me a lot of joy. We are meant to be happy. Getting to HAPPY does require some intense changes. We can change our lives one day at a time.
I do hope the rumination cycle stops. Rumination is the word. I've started singing really loudly, chanting, putting my earphones on......Yes, repeating a mantra. The only person that I can change is myself. Putting more effort into my life and knowing that my work is not my life. I got a bit caught up in "work" being my life. I realized the focus I had was not on the right things and so I'm slowly but surely freeing myself. They say knowing is half the battle. I mean.....maybe
I know I ruminate and I know it causes me to feel dis-ease. I apply the tools and do the things but I still go there. Then I catch myself and I stop. Then I go there. Stop. GO, Stop. Its a bit maddening.
I would like to extract the "rumination" portion of my brain out and dump it in the garbage where it belongs. It serves no purpose. I don't benefit from this at all. I ruminate on unsolved issues with my work and try to solve the issues with my work but they don't get solved and its just crazy town. Anyways, Rome was not built in a day and I surely don't think that this head thing is going to change as quickly as I would like it too. I am making progress ....its just real slow slow slow progress. I think there is something that I am not accepting. What do I know?
Maybe the goal should be to have a least 3 days where I intensely focus from 7:50 am until 9am on singing and chanting. Set a timer and go for it. So......Ya.....Here I am rambling about a circular thought pattern on the internet!
Its good to know I am not alone and good to know that others have experienced this and now they are free. I will get to that Freedom! I am going to get there. Im ******* determined.
This has been on my mind for awhile and I don't quite know how to talk about it in a cohesive manner. Thanks for reading!
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Congratulations on 9 months Mizz 🎉.
I ruminate on health issues. I have developed serious health anxiety since getting sober. I have been working with an anxiety specialist. It has improved as my PAWS symptoms have started to improve a little. I can relate to thinking things that don’t serve you. I have been a worrier all my life too and it’s a bad habit to break.
I ruminate on health issues. I have developed serious health anxiety since getting sober. I have been working with an anxiety specialist. It has improved as my PAWS symptoms have started to improve a little. I can relate to thinking things that don’t serve you. I have been a worrier all my life too and it’s a bad habit to break.
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Originally Posted by CBS62 
Congratulations on 9 months Mizz 🎉.
I ruminate on health issues. I have developed serious health anxiety since getting sober. I have been working with an anxiety specialist. It has improved as my PAWS symptoms have started to improve a little. I can relate to thinking things that don’t serve you. I have been a worrier all my life too and it’s a bad habit to break.
I ruminate on health issues. I have developed serious health anxiety since getting sober. I have been working with an anxiety specialist. It has improved as my PAWS symptoms have started to improve a little. I can relate to thinking things that don’t serve you. I have been a worrier all my life too and it’s a bad habit to break.
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I have some circular thought patterns going on too. It's kind of an obsessive pattern where I think about it these issues and even have some financial tools (spreadsheet modelling) I developed, and I modify them almost every day but to no avail. I never take action or make a decision. I'm paralyzed. I realize they are not helping. it is just a compulsive activity, which is one reason I went away for a week. It was wonderful, to immerse myself in other activities, be with old friends, and even the driving was a rather enjoyable way to put myself in another zone for awhile. Sometimes we have to shake things up a bit.
Best of luck with it Mizz, and again - huge congrats on getting where you are now. Overall, you are in a good place I think, and your attitude is beyond amazing. I know it takes work to accomplish that, and I respect you for putting in the consistent effort..
Best of luck with it Mizz, and again - huge congrats on getting where you are now. Overall, you are in a good place I think, and your attitude is beyond amazing. I know it takes work to accomplish that, and I respect you for putting in the consistent effort..
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Congratulations on nine months Mizz, that is a huge accomplishment! It is great you are working in changing your thinking. I am still trying to use mindfulness techniques to help me let go of whatever may be stressing me out at the end of the day, it usually hits right when I want to fall asleep! Let me know if you find something successful to get past that hurdle.
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Originally Posted by Mizz
I've been wanting to say something really inspiring and uplifting and all that jazz but I have nothing .
.Why do you say will you make 9 months? No reason why this can’t be for life now surely?
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