Waking up to a SOBER WEEKEND - WEEKENDERS 11-14 June 2021
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Originally Posted by Kaily 
I have been waiting for the new thread. I have only just worked out that its not Thursday today. 
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Thanks Leigh. Really, to be honest the main issue is the fact that they wouldn't let me put a new fence up, I felt bullied and disrespected. It bought back some bad stuff and sent me into a crisis. I could barely think straight and felt out of control. It is my PTSD, a very deep rooted fear that comes back in times of stress.
Now I am back in my logical calmer brain I can see that taking an overdose or drinking is not the right thing to do, but at the time I just wanted an escape. My heart was pounding, bp soaring and I was all on my own. I was so scared and felt under attack.
Yes there are going to be some big parties, I saw them carrying loads of charcoal, bottles and god knows what into the garden yesterday, so I guess another is imminent. I just hope it doesn't trigger me again.
New fence (at my expense) is looking more hopeful - fingers crossed.
Even the fencer that jilted me got in touch.
Thank goodness you were all with me. X
Now I am back in my logical calmer brain I can see that taking an overdose or drinking is not the right thing to do, but at the time I just wanted an escape. My heart was pounding, bp soaring and I was all on my own. I was so scared and felt under attack.
Yes there are going to be some big parties, I saw them carrying loads of charcoal, bottles and god knows what into the garden yesterday, so I guess another is imminent. I just hope it doesn't trigger me again.
New fence (at my expense) is looking more hopeful - fingers crossed.
Even the fencer that jilted me got in touch.
Thank goodness you were all with me. X
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