Emotional Rollercoaster
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Emotional Rollercoaster
Only on Day 3 of no drinking so I know my emotions will be high but man, I am having a rough day!
This is going on my list of reasons why not to drink - I will become an emotional wreck can't stop crying
I have been distracting myself with work but I just feel so lonely, isolated and depressed when sober I'm energetic and happy..
I'm finding it hard to love myself today, everyone thinks I'm a garbage drunk, my boyfriend is totally avoiding me probably outside telling the neighbors how terrible I am and what I've done to him uughhhhhh
Looking forward to weeks down the road and everything is leveled out
Guess I'm just looking for a virtual hug
xoxox D
This is going on my list of reasons why not to drink - I will become an emotional wreck can't stop crying
I have been distracting myself with work but I just feel so lonely, isolated and depressed when sober I'm energetic and happy..
I'm finding it hard to love myself today, everyone thinks I'm a garbage drunk, my boyfriend is totally avoiding me probably outside telling the neighbors how terrible I am and what I've done to him uughhhhhh
Looking forward to weeks down the road and everything is leveled out
Guess I'm just looking for a virtual hug
xoxox D
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Sweetd, this is a place where others understand. Virtual hug to you !!! Day three was my hardest - I hope you can keep visiting here and get more ideas for getting through. Like you said, it will get easier, but for today, hang on to others who understand. You can do it.
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Sweetd, this is a place where others understand. Virtual hug to you !!! Day three was my hardest - I hope you can keep visiting here and get more ideas for getting through. Like you said, it will get easier, but for today, hang on to others who understand. You can do it.
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Day 3, you are certainly in the thick of it. But you are right, if you stay sober, things will level out... they may even rise above what you think is possible.
Good on you for coming here and posting. That’s a positive step right there.
In the early days for me I ate dark chocolate and binge watched TV. Doesn’t sound healthy but it helped avoid cravings big time.
you can do this!
Good on you for coming here and posting. That’s a positive step right there.
In the early days for me I ate dark chocolate and binge watched TV. Doesn’t sound healthy but it helped avoid cravings big time.
you can do this!
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Sd1033,
Your Addictive Voice is what is feeling lonely and rejected - by YOU. For years you have been a slave to ITs whims and desires. You have been a protector and problem solver of all of the bad consequences of indulging in ITs deep pleasure.
You, the human being, who for years has been channeled into a very narrow and subservient way of life is about to BREAK FREE from ITs grip. You must force yourself to be optimistic about your future. Part of you knows absolutely this is what you want and need. Be willing to allow yourself to detach from that old habituated pleasure seeking. It is wrong for you. You can become a permanent nondrinker.
GT
Your Addictive Voice is what is feeling lonely and rejected - by YOU. For years you have been a slave to ITs whims and desires. You have been a protector and problem solver of all of the bad consequences of indulging in ITs deep pleasure.
You, the human being, who for years has been channeled into a very narrow and subservient way of life is about to BREAK FREE from ITs grip. You must force yourself to be optimistic about your future. Part of you knows absolutely this is what you want and need. Be willing to allow yourself to detach from that old habituated pleasure seeking. It is wrong for you. You can become a permanent nondrinker.
GT
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Mood swings are very normal - its like we wall up our feelings for so long,then when we stop drinking the dam wall breaks and we're flooded with emotions.
It won't last forever - you'll find your emotional level again
D
It won't last forever - you'll find your emotional level again
D
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Sweetd you are making progress so thats something to feel good about despite everything else. There are a lot of good books, podcasts and videos out there related to recovery too. Some of them will likely have topics that describe what its like in the early days of recovery. Things will get better the longer you can get some sober time under your feet.
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Congrats on day 3, good job
Keep on trucking, throw the guilt, shame and general BS bad feelings in the trash for me would you? That's where they belong as they are useless and you don't need junk cluttering the new place up
Keep on trucking, throw the guilt, shame and general BS bad feelings in the trash for me would you? That's where they belong as they are useless and you don't need junk cluttering the new place up
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I drank partly because it shut off all emotions other than dreamy floaty-ness and anger.
When I quit applying alcohol, all the emotions were Right There.
In the first couple weeks I wanted nothing more than to crawl out of my own skin. I was so emotionally raw and exhausted.
Stay the course, it's worth it.
((eHug))
When I quit applying alcohol, all the emotions were Right There.
In the first couple weeks I wanted nothing more than to crawl out of my own skin. I was so emotionally raw and exhausted.
Stay the course, it's worth it.
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I always find these discussions on early sobriety emotional rollercoasters and the effects of alcohol on emotions intriguing, as my experience has been quite different. I think I'm a pretty level-headed person by default and and alcohol abuse was what caused me a host of emotional problems, extremes and scary moods. Part of the reason I don't like looking back at the evidence of that (e.g. old posts, messages, music I listened to) now in sobriety is because it all feels so alien... I never feel like that sober and have probably been the most stable since I got sober, even during just a few months of abstinence. I get annoyed at my cravings and suffer some sensory overload, e.g. I'm still more sensitive to environmental noises than ever before and get angry at whoever generates them, but that's about it.
I recall actively enjoying the indulgence in emotions and very emotional materials while drinking all the time - something I rarely have an interest in sober. Interestingly, some other people commented on what they perceive as my emotional detachment when I don't drink in negative ways (mostly when I was much younger though), and sometimes it can affect certain types of relationships (with certain kinds of people) negatively. I have an interest in working on this and have been already before I quit drinking, but am only willing to do so far, because that drunken, brooding emotionality I dove into makes me cringe and I'll just never be a touchy-feely person, no matter how much I admire those who can relate to their peers that way and empathize deeply. It's one of those areas where sober me and my AV prefer very different styles. I think it's just an example for the diversity in alcoholism and it's interaction with personalities, even though we all agree on its destructive nature.
For those who struggle with a lot of emotional challenges in early sobriety - pretty much all the reports from people who have been sober long say it evens out significantly with time. Maybe even my tendency for detachment will reach a more mature balance, we shall see.
I recall actively enjoying the indulgence in emotions and very emotional materials while drinking all the time - something I rarely have an interest in sober. Interestingly, some other people commented on what they perceive as my emotional detachment when I don't drink in negative ways (mostly when I was much younger though), and sometimes it can affect certain types of relationships (with certain kinds of people) negatively. I have an interest in working on this and have been already before I quit drinking, but am only willing to do so far, because that drunken, brooding emotionality I dove into makes me cringe and I'll just never be a touchy-feely person, no matter how much I admire those who can relate to their peers that way and empathize deeply. It's one of those areas where sober me and my AV prefer very different styles. I think it's just an example for the diversity in alcoholism and it's interaction with personalities, even though we all agree on its destructive nature.
For those who struggle with a lot of emotional challenges in early sobriety - pretty much all the reports from people who have been sober long say it evens out significantly with time. Maybe even my tendency for detachment will reach a more mature balance, we shall see
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Originally Posted by Sweetd1033 
. . . . . can't stop crying
Originally Posted by Sweetd1033
. . . . . everyone thinks I'm a garbage drunk, my boyfriend is totally avoiding me probably outside telling the neighbors how terrible I am and what I've done to him uughhhhhh
Also, how many of those people in your life who’d bad mouth you are themselves addicted to one thing or another - most people are.
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