Chris2

Hi all.
Yep I've let myself and everyone down (again)

Tried a day without alcohol.....honestly I hate the *en thing (excuse my language) yet couldn't.

Arms and legs burning like crazy, seeing people who don't exist, so it's clear (after a few wines now) I need help.

Problem is I've rung all day and *no beds*.

Made me drink more.........

biminiblue

How much are you drinking on average?

You can probably find a way to quit without a bed in a medical facility. I had hallucinations when I quit, too.

Have you talked to your regular doctor?


Have you been to an AA meeting?

Chris2

Thank you for reply. I appreciate it.

I do 3 bottles of wine in 5 hours.....easy.

My Dr told me to * off as disgusted in me.

Fair enough I guess.

Chris2

I'll add I never drink in morning.

Problem is I can't function until I drink.

Like in bed curled up (yes I've lost my job) and then the Withdrawals are simply horrifying.

biminiblue

Okay, I'd #1 find a different doctor.

Are you in the UK?

#2, if you can't seem to get through one day - I'd get to an AA meeting or call their phone. If you're UK, also call the Samaritans. If you're US, call The Salvation Army.

How about cutting back to one bottle today? Just have sips.

I quit by tapering down over three days and I was drinking a lot more than you are. Probably double what you're drinking, easily. I was drinking hard liquor and high ABF ales. It was uncomfortable, but I did it.

Some people just quit.

You can do it.

Chris2

Nah im a Tassie boy. It's really nice here outside no decent services.

Thanks for advice but how does a future AA meeting take away the burning and seeing things?

Chris2

Nah im a Tassie boy. It's really nice here outside no decent services.

Thanks for advice but how does a future AA meeting take away the burning and seeing things?

My Dr said disgusted in me and cut me off.

biminiblue

I don't know what Tassie is.


At AA they can help you stop. That's what we'll try to do here, too.

Stopping drinking is the solution to all your issues. There's no way to do it painlessly without a medical intervention but you can still quit with just a week's discomfort.

You do have to want it.

Anna

I'd get a new doctor as soon as possible.

But, first, please consider going to an ER for help. You're drinking a lot and withdrawals can be unpredictable and dangerous.

TroubleAfoot

You may have let yourself down. It is natural to feel that way. But you haen't let us down so please don't think that. We are here for you. I have never had withdrawals as bad as you are describing so, unfortunatley, I am unable to help much but I think you've already gotten some good advice above.

As much as you feel like you can't, right now, you can, and will, fix this, Please keep us updated.

Chris2

Tasmania.

The best State in Australia.

Nup not going to AA. Prefer real people first. My mate hated AA and he's worse than me after it......

Thanks though. I mean that sincerely

Chris2

Emergency sent me home (I went in myself) 3 times now even with slit writs.

No beds as self harm. (old lady said not a priority to help so I slept in the park)

Anna

Chris, do you have a plan in mind for stopping drinking?

Chris2

Tried multiple times and just gets worse Anna.

Like I'm fine now after wines but I'll be horrible when I wake up........I drink longer to not wake up

TroubleAfoot

It's disgraceful how some healthcare workers treat alcoholics. A friend of mine got, and has, cirrhosis. He spent 4 days in the hospital and had a ton of built up fluid removed from his abodmen,, etc. He said many of the doctors he has dealt with, in the hospital and during his aftercare, were etremely gruff and dismissive of him because his condition was from drinking too much.

Keep fighting Chris

Chris2

Thank you.

Sorry I missed it.

Yeah I've *ed my body up big time and withdrawal is horrible.

Losing my daughter I have never coped with.

biminiblue

A lot of my drinking was fueled by grief too Chris.

I can say for certain that your lovely daughter would not want you to be suffering this way. Honor her memory by being a healthy person.

I couldn't get past any of my mental health issues while I still drank.


I hope you'll call a crisis line and talk to them.

Chris2

Thank you mate.

I'm sorry about your friend and his treatment.

To be frank it's how I have been treated also. *Caused it itself* is somehow alcohol only as others break arms etc on extreme sports yet straight in?

Chris2

I understand and thank you.

My daughter (11yo...school captain etc) lied to the Court lawyer.

Straight up lied and me and family cut off.

My daughter is beautiful but I'm devestated

dickensen

I have been reading the 30 Day Sobriety Solution. There are a lot of good ideas to reduce or quit drinking. I am now at 51 days and read the book every day. Quitting drinking is my most important challenge.