Weekenders April 15-22
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Weekenders April 15-22
Early sober days are rough, no two ways around that. Then after the physical part comes learning how to deal with life without the pacifier, without my checked-out, fuzzy, don't-care-about-anything escapism. Unfortunately I didn't even care about myself.
Join us in this thread for the week, it's a good safe place to talk about whatever you have going on.
I'm originally from the South and the analogy of a swamp came to me at the end of my drinking and into early sobriety. Looking back at the end of my drinking, I felt like I was drowning in a black sludge or getting sucked into a swamp in those last weeks or months of my drinking. The only time I felt good was after I'd had a drink, so naturally I had started drinking every day and starting earlier and earlier. That's the trap.
Then I had the amazing experience of healing from active alcoholism. A clear head and healthy body changes everything. I wish there was some way I could give a glimpse into the difference for those who are still struggling, but it's an inside job for us all and I had to experience it to understand it.
Some daily exercise outdoors and good nutrition were my simplest and most helpful things. After I made it past the first few months it was easier and I was able to think and make good decisions consistently. It does take some time of continuous abstinence and quite a bit of changed thinking for things to get better. When they do - it's so worth it.
It's a lot better on the sober side.
Join us in this thread for the week, it's a good safe place to talk about whatever you have going on.
I'm originally from the South and the analogy of a swamp came to me at the end of my drinking and into early sobriety. Looking back at the end of my drinking, I felt like I was drowning in a black sludge or getting sucked into a swamp in those last weeks or months of my drinking. The only time I felt good was after I'd had a drink, so naturally I had started drinking every day and starting earlier and earlier. That's the trap.
Then I had the amazing experience of healing from active alcoholism. A clear head and healthy body changes everything. I wish there was some way I could give a glimpse into the difference for those who are still struggling, but it's an inside job for us all and I had to experience it to understand it.
Some daily exercise outdoors and good nutrition were my simplest and most helpful things. After I made it past the first few months it was easier and I was able to think and make good decisions consistently. It does take some time of continuous abstinence and quite a bit of changed thinking for things to get better. When they do - it's so worth it.
It's a lot better on the sober side.
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YES! YES! YES!
Swamp. I think that is a perfect description.
Now that I am not in the swamp or in the hole of hell I can breathe and walk freely. What a relief. What a blessing. Honoring my life and walking with a tool belt filled with all kinds of life affirming tools.
Lets keep walking!
Swamp. I think that is a perfect description.
Now that I am not in the swamp or in the hole of hell I can breathe and walk freely. What a relief. What a blessing. Honoring my life and walking with a tool belt filled with all kinds of life affirming tools.
Lets keep walking!
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Nice post Bimi!
I felt like I was stuck in quicksand no matter what I do if I just became more stuck!
I also found myself drinking earlier and earlier in the day! Somehow I would rationalize if I didn't drink before noon I wasn't a real alcoholic!
Somehow by some miracle I didn't drink one day and one day turned into two days and here I am on day 24 or 25 not really sure !
I was consuming a half a gallon of vodka every 2 or 3 days and somehow thought my drinking was not a problem!
I still feel like I am in the quicksand but I have a hand on something that is helping me out of the mess I found myself mired in! Sober Recovery has play a huge part in helping me out of the quicksand and I am grateful for this place! Sorry for rambling, I got my second vaccine yesterday and it is kicking my butt today! Foggy, achy, tired and sore! Taking it easy on the couch today with my two wonderful doggies!
I felt like I was stuck in quicksand no matter what I do if I just became more stuck!
I also found myself drinking earlier and earlier in the day! Somehow I would rationalize if I didn't drink before noon I wasn't a real alcoholic!
Somehow by some miracle I didn't drink one day and one day turned into two days and here I am on day 24 or 25 not really sure !
I was consuming a half a gallon of vodka every 2 or 3 days and somehow thought my drinking was not a problem!
I still feel like I am in the quicksand but I have a hand on something that is helping me out of the mess I found myself mired in! Sober Recovery has play a huge part in helping me out of the quicksand and I am grateful for this place! Sorry for rambling, I got my second vaccine yesterday and it is kicking my butt today! Foggy, achy, tired and sore! Taking it easy on the couch today with my two wonderful doggies!
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Originally Posted by biminiblue 
Thanks Mizz. I want it to be summer. It's going to be summery here all week temperature wise.
I asked admin to take off the Summer Solstice part of my title.
I asked admin to take off the Summer Solstice part of my title.
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Originally Posted by biminiblue
Thanks Mizz. I want it to be summer. It's going to be summery here all week temperature wise.
I asked admin to take off the Summer Solstice part of my title.
I asked admin to take off the Summer Solstice part of my title.
I LOVE the title and I said out loud "NOOOOOOOO!!! (with a smile of course) because it is now being changed. I too want it to be summer. I love the warmth and the sun and all the things that make summer summer.
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The first time I tried to get sober was in 1987. My current sobriety year is 2002. Between 1987 and 2002, I just kept relapsing. What I discovered is that there is a type of alcoholic who can only stay sober by committing to the recovery program of Alcoholics Anonymous, and I am one of those types. If anyone wants to chat more about that, feel free to PM me.
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