Icandothis2013

So here is Day 9.. I have failed around Day 10 before as you may remember. However, this time feels different ! This morning I baked some bread , tended to my balcony garden and am having my therapy session in 30 minutes. Then I have to do a little work because I have a deadline on Monday , but it’s a project I enjoy so it’s not stressful. I feel calm, productive and in control and know that the reason for this is that my son is not around (I have blocked him on forms of communication and media ) and thus the feeling of being constantly threatened has lifted ! He is my main trigger for drinking .. once he starts with the non stop coercion, threats and demands for money ( with menaces), I just lose it, so it’s better this way. Sad but true.

Mizz

This reminds me of when I learned to ride a bike without training wheels.
I crashed into a fence the first time I tried. I was wobbly and really afraid of falling. I just got back on and tried again. Kept trying.
Eventually I had mastered my bike without 4 wheels. It was and still is amazing!
The things we learn to do.

alphaomega

Good for you ! Stay present and in the now moment and relish in the feeling of release from abuse both externally and internally caused.
You deserve a life of freedom from his control, and your addicition.

Let this be the time that sticks !

XO AO

Dee74

congrats on 9 days ICDT

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