Thrillhou

Today marks 120 days sober. 127 days without drinking. I hadn't gotten beyond 30 days or so before this streak, and I hadn't even gotten 1 day in the 8 years leading up to the streak. I still have trouble falling asleep, but otherwise things have been pretty good.

Introvrtd1

Nice Thrillhou!!

Keep going!

D122y

The damage from drinking is insidious and exponential.

As the toxic days add up and up, things in the body get sicker and sicker.

Eventually, this leads to organ failure and madness.

I feel I was/am at a tipping point. If I kept drinking/ever start again, my body and mind will go over the edge immediately.

I would rather be wrong about this belief than test the theory and be correct.

Never never never ever ever ever drinking again.

My sleep is the best I have had in 40 years. It slowly improved, just like it slowly worsened.

Everything is better. everything.

Thanks.

Sammy1980

Congratulations! Keep it going.

Dee74

really pleased to read this Thrillhou - congrats

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brighterday1234

Congratulations on 120 days sober. That’s a great achievement! 🙏

advbike

Great job, man. Great life ahead of you!

Zebra1275

Congratulations!

Mizz

YAY! You are doing this. Wonderful work.

FinallyLucid

Good on you Thrill! I’m right behind you with 118 days later tonight. Still have trouble sleeping some nights but with much less frequency. Limiting caffeine late in the day was definitely a factor for me.

Thrillhou

I haven't really been doing a whole lot of "recovery" stuff per se. I should probably start doing some more of those things if I want this to last. Now that I have money and a completely healed liver I'm kind of getting worried.

D122y

I was/am still forgetful that the addiction is for life. There is no "decision to drink again" or whatever, it is only "relapse."

My addiction will do and say anything to get me to relapse, for the rest of my life.

The mental part of recovery, off and on, is the madness. I know that booze is poison, but I want to feel the euphoria.

It is emotion vs analysis. When that battle rages, that is my crave time. When it goes away, usually in moments these days, I am sooooo happy I didn't relapse.

I know that my brain is permanently damaged from my drug use. It has rewired and if I relapse, it will have to rewire again.

Not going to happen.

Thanks.