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Originally Posted by Backtogood 
I need help. I'm at my own person rock bottom. If only for my own emotional rollercoaster. My husband said it pretty spot on "I never know which version I'm going to get of you from day to day." I am powerless when it comes to alcohol, the only way for me to take that power back is to quit drinking FOREVER. I have kept this thought in the back of my head that i can always go back, but I can't. I'm sorry to the great people here on SR for always posting "day 1"s, i wouldn't believe me either! Let's do this. I don't want to look back, time to find my life. And to be honest I'm scared. So day 1. Pleas don't give on me. I know i can do this 
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Day 3. Slept horribly but that's to be expected. Thanks to all of you for all of the great advice and info. Feel much more settled then a couple of days ago. Tend to be exhausted in the afternoon/early evening only to be awake most of the night. It's lovely. Nice to wake up sober. For that I am grateful.
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Originally Posted by FiveX
My day was crap too BTG. I'm 6 days into facing reality. Glad you are hanging in there. Tomorrow has to be better!
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Sleep returned slowly for me early on. But tired and clear-headed and calm is so preferable to swimming up out of drunk blackness that we referred to as "sleep", a sleep that added not a single bit of restful benefit at all. Hang in there BTG and FiveX.
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Way to go BTG. Glad you handled the upset yesterday - sometimes going to bed is all we can do but it works! My mom used to say "tomorrow is another day" and it is so right.
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End of day 4. I had to set some boundaries for myself that i had previously not. I am on day 4, I'm cranky, i don't have much patience, and I'm just drained, both physically and mentally. In a couple more days I'll probably start feeling more stable, but right now I'm all over the place. So when my family wants to visit the neighbor's house and see the new baby, i just want to stay home and chill, have a moment of silence. But we always go as a unit and i get pressured into going... the talk, i need boundaries, i need respect that sometimes I'm going to say no, go ahead without me. And i need you to be okay with that, this isn't about you. Nobody gets it. But that's okay too. Hopefully I'll get some solid sleep tonight. Night
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Originally Posted by Backtogood
End of day 4. I had to set some boundaries for myself that i had previously not. I am on day 4, I'm cranky, i don't have much patience, and I'm just drained, both physically and mentally. In a couple more days I'll probably start feeling more stable, but right now I'm all over the place. So when my family wants to visit the neighbor's house and see the new baby, i just want to stay home and chill, have a moment of silence. But we always go as a unit and i get pressured into going... the talk, i need boundaries, i need respect that sometimes I'm going to say no, go ahead without me. And i need you to be okay with that, this isn't about you. Nobody gets it. But that's okay too. Hopefully I'll get some solid sleep tonight. Night
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Great job on setting some boundaries BTG! You are in a fight for your life and they need to understand that.
Please keep it going - you're so close to getting through the physical withdrawal now on Day 5. Hang in there, tough it out. Do anything you have to to avoid taking a drink. Keep your space and AVOID all social and drinking situations. We have all had to do that at the beginning.
We're here for you BTG, stay close and keep posting.
Please keep it going - you're so close to getting through the physical withdrawal now on Day 5. Hang in there, tough it out. Do anything you have to to avoid taking a drink. Keep your space and AVOID all social and drinking situations. We have all had to do that at the beginning.
We're here for you BTG, stay close and keep posting.
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Originally Posted by Backtogood
I need help. I'm at my own person rock bottom. If only for my own emotional rollercoaster. My husband said it pretty spot on "I never know which version I'm going to get of you from day to day." I am powerless when it comes to alcohol, the only way for me to take that power back is to quit drinking FOREVER. I have kept this thought in the back of my head that i can always go back, but I can't. I'm sorry to the great people here on SR for always posting "day 1"s, i wouldn't believe me either! Let's do this. I don't want to look back, time to find my life. And to be honest I'm scared. So day 1. Pleas don't give on me. I know i can do this
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