AthensDawgs

its been awhile since I posted but I felt like I needed to vent and my mind is racing.

I have alot of great things going on - found a job, have a great gf, hanging out with my dad, getting exercise. I also got sucked back into drinking again and hiding it. I was doing so well and then bam. I also have really horrible self-esteem issues. I know deep down inside I'm a good person, its just really tough to see that when I go back to my old ways.

Thanks for letting me vent, it actually felt really good to type that out.

Dee74

Venting is great - but a recovery plan so you won't find yourself in this position again could be even better AD?
Be that great person you know you are
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D122y

Quitting drinking is really really really hard.

The only reason I was able to suffer through the hells of quitting was because I knew they were getting worse and worse.

Some folks stay medicated on booze, e.g. drink daily or almost daily. Folks, like me, that drank off and on, tend to feel worse because our chemical balance is never normalized. Mentally, we are a wreck.

Alcohol is not a naturally ingested substance. Our body immediately attempts to expel it when it is ingested. It becomes a learned behavior.

Addiction for some is almost immediate. Some folks like the euphoria. Others sense that it is not natural and go the other way.

I was born into drinking. I was stealing drinks at 5 years old.

SR taught me what I needed to know to suffer through normalizing to this point. In saying that, I am still healing after over 5 years sober.

There is more, but that is all I have for now.

Thanks.

Rella927

Venting can be good but, when you are venting keep in mind you are going down the same trail of what you do not like!
Finding a recovery plan is a good trail/path to start heading down

SR is a great place to be to help you on that path