Peeling away the layers Weekenders- Weekenders 05-08 February 2021
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Originally Posted by Kaily 
Thank you to those that offered help.
I didn't drink, but now the whole thing will start again today. It is not COVID related as that hasn't really affected my life. I lived in isolation long before that came along and will do long after it is gone. My moods are very cyclothymic at times. I'm depressed.
I don't know how to fix my life. I can honestly say I have no one to pick up the phone to when I need a chat, moan or whatever. That is scary.
I know the thought of living the next 25 years or so, like this is a daunting thought.
Sorry for clogging up the weekenders with misery. I have nowhere else to post.
I didn't drink, but now the whole thing will start again today. It is not COVID related as that hasn't really affected my life. I lived in isolation long before that came along and will do long after it is gone. My moods are very cyclothymic at times. I'm depressed.
I don't know how to fix my life. I can honestly say I have no one to pick up the phone to when I need a chat, moan or whatever. That is scary.
I know the thought of living the next 25 years or so, like this is a daunting thought.
Sorry for clogging up the weekenders with misery. I have nowhere else to post.
Part of my recovery has meant me having to deal with my mental health because I wanted a sober life I was happy in and I refused to believe the voice in my head that said it could never happen.
I also refused to believe that drinking and self medicating with recreational drugs could make it in any way better, because I had 30 years of evidence that said that was BS.
Hows teleheath there now Kaily - can you at least talk to a professional about your depression?
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I got discharged from mental health as I was finding it too difficult emotionally to partake in group therapy and there were no more resources for individual therapy. It triggered my PTSD horrendously and I was unable to share. I don't like talking to strangers about my traumas.
I have a 10 minute phone consultation with my GP once a month and I am on medication.
I have a 10 minute phone consultation with my GP once a month and I am on medication.
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I'm not trying to make you feel bad - I've followed your story for a long time and I think what you've accomplished by staying in recovery is amazing.
I'd hate to lose you to the addiction again.
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I'd hate to lose you to the addiction again.
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((((((Kaily)))))) sending you a huge virtual hug. I wish I could come and give you a real hug and you could take me for a walk with Alfie and Daisy through the lovely countryside. I love the photos of your walks with them. We all love you and would miss you terribly if you weren’t here with us ❤️ 
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