When I wake up in the morning...
 

I will have 5 years of continuous sobriety.

It will be an ordinary day, I will meditate before I leave for work, drive to school and take some chicken soup for my lunch. I will work hard, come home and cook chilli for me and hubby. I will write in my gratitude journal, read and go to bed.

it will be entirely ordinary. Nothing exciting. Hopefully it won’t be pouring with rain again and nothing too tricky will happen for me to manage while I’m at work. But if it does, I will handle it. I always do.

Five years ago, I was desperate for ordinary. I was sick and tired of having a panic attack before I left for work. I was desperate for peace. My relationships were in tatters, I was drinking to blackout and lived in terror of what I might have said and done the night before. I thought about alcohol all day. It came first, above my husband and my kids, and I felt deep shame about that. I wanted to die. I planned how I might do it, and had started stashing pills so I could take off to someplace quiet and get on with it. I couldn’t think of a way forward.

it has taken time, and I worked hard at it. I have made my own sobriety plan and I stick to it. I look after myself mentally and physically and I look out for others. I work hard and I keep life nice and simple. An ordinary life is just perfect.

keep going guys. It really is worth it ❤️

Congratulations. :)

Many congratulations on 5 years :)

IM SO PROUD OF YOU! I remember you! Its looks like you have made quiet a peaceful life for yourself. Thank you for sharing this.
INSPIRATIONAL, Jeni!

Well done Jeni26 and a huge congratulations to you! Thank you for posting :)

Thanks Jeni—just the encouragement I needed today.

An ordinary life is perfect, and just where I should be. . .

Happy 5 years!

Congrats on five years sober! :hug:

Your post is so inspiring Jeni. Thank you so much for sharing it. Your drinking history overlaps so many of our collective experiences. I'm just over a year sober and as life becomes more quiet, calm and ordinary each day, the happier I am. I remember so vividly how out of control and chaotic my life was and I'm so glad that is over. And when folks with long-term sobriety like you check in and let us know what that is like, that really helps the rest of us so much. Thank you.

Many congratulations, Jeni!! :scoregood

ah Jeni, great to see you again, and especially for such a wonderful reason:)
congratulations!

Well done Jeni, so glad to hear it. Congratulations.

Congratulations Jeni! I relate to much I of what you said, especially the pills and the planning. What a miserable existence.
I love my ordinary life, and glad you do too:)

Thanks for sharing this today

Jeni, what a great post. Be very proud of yourself for achieving 5 years of recovery.

Congratulations I have seen how hard you worked!

Congrats Jeni. 5 years is a major milestone!

I remember that time 5 years ago....and I remember how hard you fought to re-take sobriety by the horns.
How determined you were to take back your Iife and your heaIth. To bring back joy.
And one day at a time you have done just that, and I am so very happy for you my friend.

Congrats dear Jeni. :) :hug: s ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Congratulations Jeni :)
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Thank you for sharing your story of truth and triumph, Jeni. :thanks

That is so beautiful.

Congratulations on five years Jeni!!! I am so proud of you, and very excited for you to celebrate this milestone! I hope you enjoyed every minute of this ordinary, yet extraordinary day!!
❤️Delilah