Intruction
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Intruction
Hello everyone; writing this feeling bright eyed and human for first time in many years. Long time drinker. Had a few days off in that time. Not many. Life generally not going well and drinking's been getting worse with Covid. More crap happened over the weekend and I woke up on the sofa feeling like dogshit and listening as my partner of 10 years slammed the door behind her and stormed off. Again.
So...
Time to stop.
Been absolutely dreading stopping.
Looking for a supportive group.
I was sober last night (17th January 2021): Reading The Right Stuff by the bedside light and drinking chamomile tea. Some very mild night sweats. Feel human this morning. I'm sure this is probably a very short term feeling and that I will get some more significant withdrawl symptoms but I'm OK at this very very early stage. I just want alcohol out of my life.
That's all really by way of an introduction. Lurked here a while. SR is a really fantastic place.
So...
Time to stop.
Been absolutely dreading stopping.
Looking for a supportive group.
I was sober last night (17th January 2021): Reading The Right Stuff by the bedside light and drinking chamomile tea. Some very mild night sweats. Feel human this morning. I'm sure this is probably a very short term feeling and that I will get some more significant withdrawl symptoms but I'm OK at this very very early stage. I just want alcohol out of my life.
That's all really by way of an introduction. Lurked here a while. SR is a really fantastic place.
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Welcome EldirFawr!!!!
Boy, I remember those days.... the tea and the book and trying to feel like a human being. Trying to set aside all the ugly memories and look past the reality of my now to a hopeful future....
I'm glad you found us, and glad you chimed in with this intro.
You can do this.
Boy, I remember those days.... the tea and the book and trying to feel like a human being. Trying to set aside all the ugly memories and look past the reality of my now to a hopeful future....
I'm glad you found us, and glad you chimed in with this intro.
You can do this.
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There were many times I vowed to never drink again,
to only fall back in the same trap of an endless cycle
that comes with addiction.
So many promises I tried to keep, then succumb to
the strong grip addiction had on me from about the
age of 17 to 30.
A mom and wife who was saved by a loving family
who cared enough to place me into the hands of those
capable of teaching me about my addiction and hand
me the gift of a recovery program to live by and
incorporate in my daily affairs to achieve continuous
sobriety for 30 yrs now.
A 28 day in stay at a rehab facility with a 6 week
aftercare program to complete that part of the program
before I was set on my own path of recovery, my own
journey, listening, learning, absorbing and applying
tools and knowledge freely passed on to me to achieve
health, happiness, honesty and many of lifes rewarding
gifts.
I did the footwork necessary to help me build a recovery
foundation to live upon each day I remained sober.
I found a place amongst many who had similar experiences
as I and thru their own strengths and hopes they carried me
one step at a time till I was able to stand on my own, carry
on in life moving forward.
Hold onto your recovery lifelines and folks will do the
same as you build your own recovery foundation to
live addiction free by yourself.
Support, care and understanding SR Strong.
to only fall back in the same trap of an endless cycle
that comes with addiction.
So many promises I tried to keep, then succumb to
the strong grip addiction had on me from about the
age of 17 to 30.
A mom and wife who was saved by a loving family
who cared enough to place me into the hands of those
capable of teaching me about my addiction and hand
me the gift of a recovery program to live by and
incorporate in my daily affairs to achieve continuous
sobriety for 30 yrs now.
A 28 day in stay at a rehab facility with a 6 week
aftercare program to complete that part of the program
before I was set on my own path of recovery, my own
journey, listening, learning, absorbing and applying
tools and knowledge freely passed on to me to achieve
health, happiness, honesty and many of lifes rewarding
gifts.
I did the footwork necessary to help me build a recovery
foundation to live upon each day I remained sober.
I found a place amongst many who had similar experiences
as I and thru their own strengths and hopes they carried me
one step at a time till I was able to stand on my own, carry
on in life moving forward.
Hold onto your recovery lifelines and folks will do the
same as you build your own recovery foundation to
live addiction free by yourself.
Support, care and understanding SR Strong.
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Join Date: Jan 2021
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Thanks for the warm welcome and advice everyone, really appreciated. I'm going to browse SR for a while later and prob not post much until I've got a few days under my belt. Going to take a look at the diary / blog function here too.
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Welcome Elidir. Life is just so much better sober, if you could see it after you get through the first few months. You will wonder what took you so long, but then we have all done it. We addicts have a hard time dealing with reality, so we try to avoid it. But ultimately all of life's problems are smaller without the addiction. Some are not even a problem anymore.
Just stay on here and you can do it. I recommend joining the January class - you will have fun and get more support.
Just stay on here and you can do it. I recommend joining the January class - you will have fun and get more support.
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Originally Posted by ElidirFawr 
Time to stop.
Been absolutely dreading stopping.
Been absolutely dreading stopping.
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We're so glad to have you here, ElidirFawr. You are never alone, & in very good company. Everyone here understands how it is in the early days - and what you're going through. Keep reading & posting - we are with you.
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Hi Elidir - You might not necessarily have white-knuckle withdrawal symptoms. I have quit on several occasions after long periods of daily drinking and occasional binging (last drink 9-24-2020), and have never experienced anything more severe in those days following than some night sweats and interrupted sleep. Weeks after, occasional mild anxiety ... but overall, relief to not have my days consumed with thinking about that first drink, and gratitude to finally start each day feeling fresher, clearer, less guilty, and just plain HUMAN. YMMV, but please stick with it. All the best to you.
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Originally Posted by DriGuy
What is it about stopping that you dread? I think most of us truly want to stop, at least I've never heard anyone here say otherwise until now. Our biggest problem is usually about not being able to figure out how to do it.
I'm day 3 now and - touch wood - have had absolutely none of that (long term 90+ units a week drinker) nor any other symptoms really. So I'm now getting paranoid something nasty is round the corner!!
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Originally Posted by Runswithspoons
Hi Elidir - You might not necessarily have white-knuckle withdrawal symptoms. I have quit on several occasions after long periods of daily drinking and occasional binging (last drink 9-24-2020), and have never experienced anything more severe in those days following than some night sweats and interrupted sleep. Weeks after, occasional mild anxiety ... but overall, relief to not have my days consumed with thinking about that first drink, and gratitude to finally start each day feeling fresher, clearer, less guilty, and just plain HUMAN. YMMV, but please stick with it. All the best to you.
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