Day one again tommorow
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Day one again tommorow
Ive had a lot of success not drinking but..I've been on a week long bender. Sober now, last drink at noon.. hopefully the withdraws will be kind. Excuses? Ive got a ton of them... (dead younger brother, dead father and an invalid mom,I have to care for...that and my daughter left for college yesterday) none hold water or vodka for that matter. Wife is cool and supportive. Lurked this site when I got sober 10 years ago. just need some support
01-14-2019
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Hi Izzy, welcome back. I’m so sorry for all your loss. I have found things like grief are still hard sober, but drinking made them harder and longer. I didn’t even realize how much longer I was trapped and not healing drinking through a loss vs sober. I hope you feel better tomorrow and check in. You’ve mentioned previous sober experience so I hope you can draw on that.
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You are right TR. For whatever reason, when confronted with some thing out of my control, I feel in control by drinking. Not only do I feel in control, I feel empowered by drinking and giving the world the middle finger. Crazy stupid huh? Well, day one tomorrow, lets see if common scene/preservation prevails 
I feel good about it!
I feel good about it!
Use the support here to help you get sober for good this time. 
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Hey! Welcome back . Best of luck in these early days, meetings help and so do these forums. The pandemic actually came with the benefit of the available of online resources being expanded immensely. Zoom calls are very accessible and you can basically get a meeting 24/7 online. I'm still in the early days of recovery myself, but I am trying to make the habit of sitting in front of the meeting as if I was in person. It would be very easy for me to just have it playing in the background and me hardly paying attention.
One day at a time. All the best <3
PS there is an app called meeting guide to help you find meetings
. Best of luck in these early days, meetings help and so do these forums. The pandemic actually came with the benefit of the available of online resources being expanded immensely. Zoom calls are very accessible and you can basically get a meeting 24/7 online. I'm still in the early days of recovery myself, but I am trying to make the habit of sitting in front of the meeting as if I was in person. It would be very easy for me to just have it playing in the background and me hardly paying attention.One day at a time. All the best <3
PS there is an app called meeting guide to help you find meetings
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Today is day 5 First and second day the usual, shakes, night sweats, anxiety and the general feeling of imminent death, started pulling out day three, Day four felt much better. Today I feel pretty good, went for a 10 mile bike ride this morning and keeping busy around the house. Been on SR alot, that helps. I keep telling myself, "that's the last time I have to feel that way".
First and second day the usual, shakes, night sweats, anxiety and the general feeling of imminent death, started pulling out day three, Day four felt much better. Today I feel pretty good, went for a 10 mile bike ride this morning and keeping busy around the house. Been on SR alot, that helps. I keep telling myself, "that's the last time I have to feel that way".
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Welcome back, Izzy and great job on day 5. 
I give you so much credit for coming back and not giving up after so many heartaches. Yes, the drinking temporarily eases the pain, but you never really get an opportunity to deal with your emotions, which are still there when you sober up.
The exercise is a great idea and 10 miles is awesome! 🚴♂️ Keep up the good work and don't forget evaluate your nutrition. I ate such garbage when I was drinking and my body suffered, but now I crave salads! 🥗
Stick close to SR. There is always someone to "talk" to.
I give you so much credit for coming back and not giving up after so many heartaches. Yes, the drinking temporarily eases the pain, but you never really get an opportunity to deal with your emotions, which are still there when you sober up. The exercise is a great idea and 10 miles is awesome! 🚴♂️ Keep up the good work and don't forget evaluate your nutrition. I ate such garbage when I was drinking and my body suffered, but now I crave salads! 🥗
Stick close to SR. There is always someone to "talk" to.
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It will be the last time you have to "feel like that" izzy.
It will be this way for all of us, so long as we remain sober. It's a good feeling.
Hope you are still doing well. If not, pick yourself up and kick off again.
You can do this.
It will be this way for all of us, so long as we remain sober. It's a good feeling.
Hope you are still doing well. If not, pick yourself up and kick off again.
You can do this.
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