I’m in a bad way
I did not go out and buy or drink today. I am in a meeting as we speak. Struggling badly, but sober. Ready to suffer more if that’s what it will take.
Thank you for all of the words, prayers and thoughts. Being a failure is a hard pill to swallow. It gets so old.
I will discuss my failure in more depth at a soon time.
❤️
Thank you for all of the words, prayers and thoughts. Being a failure is a hard pill to swallow. It gets so old.
I will discuss my failure in more depth at a soon time.
❤️
I did not go out and buy or drink today. I am in a meeting as we speak. Struggling badly, but sober. Ready to suffer more if that’s what it will take.
Thank you for all of the words, prayers and thoughts. Being a failure is a hard pill to swallow. It gets so old.
I will discuss my failure in more depth at a soon time.
❤️
Thank you for all of the words, prayers and thoughts. Being a failure is a hard pill to swallow. It gets so old.
I will discuss my failure in more depth at a soon time.
❤️
No one is coming to save you. You have to save yourself. Either you'll get serious or you won't. Either you'll make changes or you won't. D122y said something in a thread yesterday, "The only way out is time and suffering." Us addicts have become wussies. Any slight feeling of discontent or sadness or any damn thing and we have to use. We have to numb it. We don't want to feel anymore. We have to realize that we will have to learn to suffer first. Then learn to feel. Then learn to live. I'm still in the suffering part. Keep posting, keep being honest, and get serious about this if you want change.
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BABM - Nope, not gonna let you off the hook with the anxiety excuse. But as you know just like I know that alcohol actually causes anxiety, not cures it. You’re drinking again because your brain the neural pathways reawakened. It doesn’t seem soooo bad right now to have a drink, although you are worried or you wouldn’t be here on SR, right? I messed up after a year and a half and blew 5 months off the wagon. I am just on day four sober now. Early in the game but I’ve done it before and I can do it again. Let’s do it together? I won’t drink and you won’t drink. And then we can circle back to this thread in a year and show everyone how we’ve done it.
You have your cat, you have your new home, and you moved to be close to family. There is not one positive thing that a legalized liquid drug can bring to your life, and you know that. That’s why you’re reading this right now. If you want to drink so badly, tell yourself you can tomorrow. And then do it again. we know it gets easier. We know that. You might not want to stop drinking right now, but I know you want to want to or you would not be here. So listen to the real you. The one that wants to want to stop drinking. And look at all you accomplished sober in the past five months. Don’t trick yourself into thinking you could’ve done that growth drinking. Don’t be me that stays off the wagon for five months. I don’t want that for you. I can tell you deserve better. And so does your cat. Animals can smell when you’re drunk and drinking. They know something’s wrong. So pick up that fat chunker whenever you want to pick up a drink and think about her instead.
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I did not go out and buy or drink today. I am in a meeting as we speak. Struggling badly, but sober. Ready to suffer more if that’s what it will take.
Thank you for all of the words, prayers and thoughts. Being a failure is a hard pill to swallow. It gets so old.
I will discuss my failure in more depth at a soon time.
❤️
Thank you for all of the words, prayers and thoughts. Being a failure is a hard pill to swallow. It gets so old.
I will discuss my failure in more depth at a soon time.
❤️
Oh, I just saw this. You’re not a failure at all. You’re a fighter.
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