I’m in a bad way
I bet she was glad to see you, too. Cats are amazing.
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Originally Posted by Erica375 
BABM You have been a jerk to me, but I love animals. Put the cat's litter box outsider your door. This will help your cat find its way home, through smell.
And please remember that the lowliest among us also have something to contribute.
And please remember that the lowliest among us also have something to contribute.
Now work on your sobriety so you can take good care of your cats and yourself. Member
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I am sober today and plan to stay that way. I am struggling immensely with guilt of drinking and of the overwhelming pressure of selling and buying two homes. I stopped going to meetings because I was busy coordinating the move and when I don’t go to meetings, I drink.
Thank you all so much for support. I’ve been lying beds throughout the house trying to get comfortable and begging God for relief.
Thank you all so much for support. I’ve been lying beds throughout the house trying to get comfortable and begging God for relief.
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Good job, BABM. Sorry to hear about the pressure - is there anyone you can hire to assist, or any part of it that can be put off for awhile so you can get back to priorities?
Real estate transactions are stressful (I have bought and sold 4 homes in two states in the past 3 years) and you need to find good agents to handle the transactions, make lots of lists, and delegate (hire help) as much as possible to keep the pressure off. But I can see how it would disrupt your meetings in any case.
Try not to beat yourself up - we all slip up. I commend you for your honesty! Not to mention you still have 5 months of healing, a new house, and you got your cat back.
Dude, everything is fine! There's no shame or guilt in this. Now it's time for you to take care of BABM.
Real estate transactions are stressful (I have bought and sold 4 homes in two states in the past 3 years) and you need to find good agents to handle the transactions, make lots of lists, and delegate (hire help) as much as possible to keep the pressure off. But I can see how it would disrupt your meetings in any case.
Try not to beat yourself up - we all slip up. I commend you for your honesty! Not to mention you still have 5 months of healing, a new house, and you got your cat back.
Dude, everything is fine! There's no shame or guilt in this. Now it's time for you to take care of BABM.
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Good to hear BABM. Thanks for posting, and that comes from my heart.
Get over the guilt, you are not the first to feel guilt, that is why the feeling has a name. Enough people have felt it that they came up with a name for the feeling. You are no more special nor worse than any other alcoholic. We have a love/hate relationship with guilt.
I don't go to a set number of meetings per week, but I know that whenever I start to come up with reasons why I can't go on whatever day, that is the very day I should go to a meeting.
Get over the guilt, you are not the first to feel guilt, that is why the feeling has a name. Enough people have felt it that they came up with a name for the feeling. You are no more special nor worse than any other alcoholic. We have a love/hate relationship with guilt.
I don't go to a set number of meetings per week, but I know that whenever I start to come up with reasons why I can't go on whatever day, that is the very day I should go to a meeting.
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Originally Posted by BeABetterMan
Sorry all, I couldn’t make it. Too much anxiety. Drinking again. The damn cycle.
Bottom line, dump out what you have and cut your losses - you can start again right now.
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Hard as it was, I had to call someone in the program, to either come over or to find someone who could come over and sit with me while I sobered up because at that point I couldn't be trusted to do it alone. A couple with teenagers at home, invited me into their home because they remembered their time at the jumping off point. It ain't called a fellowship for no reason. Pick up the phone, not the bottle.
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God could and would if he were sought BABM. You did it before, and you can do it again. I once blew 18 months. Telling on myself to my home group was brutal, but necessary. I found not counting days, or even hours sober helped a lot.
You can do it again. Getting sober is hard, but worth it, as you know. Maybe you just needed a last reminder that people like us can not drink safely.
I'm rooting for you. Just do exactly what you did to obtain the 5 months sober. It will work again, and you know it works. Take the drinking option off the table...no matter what!
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You can do it again. Getting sober is hard, but worth it, as you know. Maybe you just needed a last reminder that people like us can not drink safely.
I'm rooting for you. Just do exactly what you did to obtain the 5 months sober. It will work again, and you know it works. Take the drinking option off the table...no matter what!
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I know you’ve got a lot of stress going on right now BABM, but I also know that you can do this, and I believe this will be the time you get sober for good. Google online meetings and get to one tomorrow, if you feel like drinking check in here someone will be here to help talk you through it.
Reset BABM, you’ve got this.
Reset BABM, you’ve got this.
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