freedomfries

Today marks 100 days sober. I wish I could say it's all been sunshine and rainbows but the truth is I desperately want a drink. I'm not going to have one though.

There are lots of good things about sobriety. I haven't run into trouble with the police. My parents and some of my siblings are happy with me. I don't wake up with crippling anxiety desperate for a drink. I have more money. I'm exercising three times a week.

Unfortunately I've had two psychotic episodes requiring hospitalisations in these 100 days. Hopefully there won't be any more. I'm taking my meds and trying not to isolate so hopefully I won't become psychotic again. They're quite scary.

I hope with more sober time the wanting to have a drink will dissipate.

I'd like to reward myself for being 100 days sober. Maybe I'll pause my diet and enjoy the sweets left over from Christmas

Hope everyone had a great Christmas.

I'm looking forward to the new year. A fresh start for hopefully a psychosis free 2021.

MissPerfumado

Well done on 100 days, FF! A reward in the form of sweets sounds super, and well-deserved. I'm glad to hear things are going well between you and your parents, and some of your family. Keep it up, along with the meds. It all bodes well for a fresh and fine start to 2021.

Reid82

Congrats on 100 days, FF.

Jillga

Way to go, FF!!!!!!! You are doing the hard thing for a better life! 100 days is AMAZING🎊

Robbie64

Congratulations on 100 days FF.

Erica375

Congratulations, fellow Septemberino! Well done! I was slightly craving a drink yesterday, but luckily no alcohol is sold here on Christmas, so I was safe. I logged in here several times throughout the day, watched cheesy old Christmas movies, ate a bit too much, and texted with my family.
And woke up today feeling great!
Happy New Year, dear FF!

FreeOwl

way to go, FF!!! and yes, the desire, the wanting, the desperation.... that will fade.

but, it won't just do so on its own.

you need to be working on re-wiring your brain, telling yourself new stories, looking forward to the life of sobriety that you've chosen, taking active steps.

There are a gajillion ways to do that, but that's how it's done..... and it's done One. Day. At. A. Time>>> just like you've done for 100 days!!

Keep it up!

advbike

Good job man, I know it hasn't been easy for you. Don't try to diet when your fighting alcohol cravings. Eat well and enjoy a treat every day. It will give you something to look forward to that is basically harmless. I find alcohol and sugar almost interchangeable. No need to punish yourself. Sobriety should be wonderful - it is for me.

Keep up the good work.

EllyB

Congratulations Ff! You can do this!

Steely

Congratulations FF. You have done magnificently.

So good to read about problems with your parents, the police, siblings, are starting to improve. Becoming sober has so many rewards, and you're beginning (me too) to reap them.

I bought a Van Gough print in the op (thrift) shop the other day framed and all. "Peasant-woman tying sheaves", she looks a bit tired, but she's brining in the sheaves, that's for sure.

So very happy for you FF. Enjoy your Christmas sweet treat.

Here's to a peaceful, and renewed 2021.

stickyone

Great job FF on the 100 days of commitment to your sobriety. I treated myself aswell to all the good sweet treats this Christmas season. Enjoy your hard work and dedication.

Dee74

congrats on 100 days

I hope you'll find as I did that the desire lessened after three months or so.

I was focused on budding a sober life I loved - I changed the things in me I did not like and could change, and made peace with the things I could not change.

It took concerted and sustained effort but the more I did that, the less I craved oblivion.

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Lixie

Hey FF, happy New Year!

Haven't heard from you in a while, how are you doing?

PuckLuck

Congrats FF! I am also looking forward to a psychosis free 2021. I do not want to see another psych ward stay this year I'll tell ya that.

Nothing jump starts that trainwreck of a state of mind for me like alcohol does. Even without alcohol it is still a struggle at times, but without alcohol I can manage it better.

Steely

How are you doing freedomfries?

Hope the New Year is seeing you well.

Hodd

FF, like everyone else, I enjoy your posts and your ever lengthening sober period, but there’s always the negativity in there too. I get it that you’ll take a time to settle, but maybe you should start congratulating yourself that bit more? Pretty much all ex-drinkers become more positive. I used to be the most miserable and anti-social grumpy man out there, but after a few months, I was already more positive. Try and see some positives as you’re doing really really well.

Dee74

I hope you'll check in too FF

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Dropsie

Thinking of you FF!