Things we don't miss in sobriety I thought it would be interesting to write down the things we don't miss about our drinking or using days.
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-I don't miss sitting at my desk with heavy eyes, wishing I could just find a way to stop drinking. -I don't miss the mix of negative emotions I always felt, not being able to differentiate between me and drunk-me. -I don't miss the look of disdain in my daughters eyes, while she tried to communicate with the drunk me...and begging me to stop. -I don't miss my husbands eye-rolls because it's another unstable day and he's fed up. -I don't miss the paranoia I felt because I erroneously thought my husband was cheating. -I don't miss spending more money on booze then I did on self-care. I could go on forever. Thank you, I needed this today:) |
Dont miss: regret anxiety being drunk trying to run/ workout with a hangover shame guilt headaches risky behavior blackouts feeding the alcoholism Battling depression associated with active alcoholism groundhogs day |
I don't miss the crippling anxiety. Dry heaving in my morning shower. |
The constant and debilitating alcoholic loop that plays out over and over and over again, with the same results every single time AND without any significant change only a perpetual wallowing day after day, year after year. I don’t miss any of that. |
Originally Posted by LateBloominCait
(Post 7561234)
I thought it would be interesting to write down the things we don't miss about our drinking or using days.
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I don't miss the terror of who I called or drunk texted in a blackout. I don't miss needing to drink in the morning to get back to zero, but throwing up after said drinks, and continuing on. I don't miss the withdrawals of quitting over and over again. I don't miss figuring out how to stop the madness. I am free. Thanks |
After 7 years of sobriety. I don't miss the hiding it, or at least trying to. To thine own self be true. |
I don't miss
Just a few awful things that stick out most |
Taking home Janet jackson from the bar to wake up the next morning next to Freddie jackson. Just kidding. :c033: So much to list but I love being sober and having a good laugh. Take care everyone |
Originally Posted by stickyone
(Post 7561559)
Taking home Janet jackson from the bar to wake up the next morning next to Freddie jackson. Just kidding. :c033: But also... very on point. Reminds me of a drunken one night stand of unprotected sex when I was on a business trip - and at the time I was both married and having an affair. I woke to the triad of a terrible hangover, deep shame and terror that I probably had HIV or some other STD. DEFINITELY don't miss that. |
I don't miss anything about my drinking days. Anything I did drunk, I can do better sober... Anything! So what's to miss? |
I don't miss driving around hammered with my two young daughters in the car, bottle of vodka between my legs, and being utterly unable to find my house. I don't miss my daughters finding me tipped over in a snow bank outside and fearing I was dead. I don't miss towards the end of the madness being surprised and saddened that I woke up and survived another day. I don't miss the dread of night, the dread of mornings, sweating in the winter, organ pain, gout, e.d., rotten teeth, ****** up feet, filthy house, hangovers, impulsivity, anger, smelling like death, looks from others, chest pains, drunk food decisions, drunk shopping decisions, drunk career decisions, eyes looking like two ****-holes in the snow, foggy brain, fat face, red face, ugly face, ****** up joints, smoking the dirty cigs. I could go on and on. So grateful to be in recovery and sober. Grateful for every single day. |
-waking up at 3 in the morning with a raging thirst, pounding head and that utter fear, despair and shame as the memories-the ones i can recall, start coming back. who did i text.fb, what did i say? -the constant going round and round what shall i drink, what time, how much? -arguing with myself, im not doing this again, only to do it again -not trusting myself -looking and feeling awful every single morning |
Originally Posted by ReadyAtLast
(Post 7562258)
-waking up at 3 in the morning with a raging thirst, pounding head and that utter fear, despair and shame as the memories-the ones i can recall, start coming back. who did i text.fb, what did i say? -the constant going round and round what shall i drink, what time, how much? -arguing with myself, im not doing this again, only to do it again -not trusting myself -looking and feeling awful every single morning |
Every reply on this post has brought me to tears! Everyone reminds me of how I felt everyday. Ground hog day really sticks out. |
Love this post!!! I don't miss: Waking up hungover every day, and eating junk and drinking more to try to "fix" it Day drinking, period. Hiding bottles and cans, needing to take out cash so I wouldn't leave a paper trail of the incredible amounts of alcohol I was buying Living life at a distance from everyone else Shame and guilt Planning my driving around when I would be drunk Puffy face, bloodshot eyes, generally looking and feeling like death warmed over |
All this and... Acid reflux. Constant. |
'Jolt of panic', terror, dread, fear, despair, shame - all words used in the above posts. This was fun? What were we thinking?! In my case - in the end I had no choice but to take it to work with me - or I would shake & be sick during the day. (Oh, I'm sure no one noticed :tongue:) Classy! |
I won't miss trying to count the drinks I had the night before and hope my blood alcohol is low enough so if I get pulled over at work I'll be under the limit. Or waking up finding a loaded gun on the living room floor and having no memory of putting it there or why. |
The brittle, brutal selfishness and self-loathing |
Fear |
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I don't miss being late to everything, even funerals. I don't miss never keeping my word. I don't miss hating myself because I couldn't pull it together, even for my loved ones who desperately needed me. I don't miss wondering where I hid my bottles and becoming paranoid over who might find them or worse, if I couldn't find them and had to buy replacements. I don't miss wondering where all my money went each day, week, month. I don't miss looking and feeling bloated, being unhealthy and overweight, looking much older than my real age. I don't miss anything about drinking, period! |
Originally Posted by bandicoot2
(Post 7566234)
I don't miss being late to everything! |
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