LarryF

I'm down the hall.

Do you know I'm here
Can you feel me
I'm not really here
You can't see me

Silent screaming
So very lowd
All alone
In a crowd

Why is the ringing
In my ears
Screaming so loud
All my fears

I look at my face
Not a happy place
I look in my mind
Such a scary place

If you know me
Run away
You don't know me
I don't play

You say go straight
I turn left
Right off a cliff
I have nothing left

I see the ground below me
Head first
I can't wait to be
A part of the Earth

One inch to go
I see it all
The beauty the wonder
The Angels call

It's just me
I'm down the hall

aasharon90

Thank you Larry for sharing you poem with us as
I read each line, each word, wondering what it all
means. Is it despair? Is it the addiction speaking
thru you?

Not sure.

Hawkeye13

Beautiful writing Larry--we can hear you--we can feel you--you aren't alone

Please keep posting.

TiredCarpenter

I’m crappy at poetry. I never interpret it quite correctly, so forgive if I’m off;
If you’re suicidal you should call a helpline now!

FreeOwl

my favorite thing about poems from the bottom is that they signify the crying out of our true soul's nature.

We don't want the bottom.

We want the light.

The poems from the bottom are our voices calling out for the light, and if we follow those voices and do the work.... we leave the bottom behind. forever.

Keep up the sharing. Lift yourself up.

The light awaits.

LarryF

I was literally in my room down the hall listening to voices and laughter. My heart was screaming out while my mind was spinning out of control. I was in a dark place and there are reasons for that. Primarily me. I don't know why but I just started typing. Later I thought I would share it here in case anyone could relate. You are right FreeOwl. I didn't want to be there and I never want to go back. I want to be in the light.

I don't understand how or why but I have hope today.

Steely

Keep the faith Larry.

You are not alone. We've been there too.

Keep posting. Keep writing.

FreeOwl

What about today?

Do you have hope today?

I hope so.

LarryF

Yes. I just have to stay out of my head. I'm not in the place today. I found an AA Zoom meeting that is just amazing. I feel so v accepted there. I am actually becoming a part of a group of amazing people. I am very grateful God put them in my life.

FreeOwl

When you find yourself in your head.... that can be a great reminder to move into your heart for a while.... a short meditation, a journal session, a phone call to someone you love.....

keep at it, you've got this.