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Sobering to be reminded of the fact that I knew I had a problem 10 years' ago.

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...t-process.html

I pretty much knew for a long time as well, just wasn't ready to admit it to myself. How's it going now?

My world seemed to be shrinking and shrinking. When we take that first drink we are immediately shackled. Things change.

Suddenly we to be careful to not drink too much, or drive a car, or argue with our SO.

I am high on life right now. I worked out for about an hour last night, stairmaster and weights, and I feel as good as I can.

Booze made me feel good for about 20 minutes per unit. The first couple of drinks. Then it was all down hill with a dreaded hangover/detox coming.

I got through the physical addiction pretty quick, but the mental still lingers. Nothing like before. The crave is like a little voice in the depths of my mind.

SR and my booze IQ are my defense. Using these tools for the rest of my life is the way forward.

Thanks.

I have been through two and a half rehabs since September 2018. I am currently 105 days sober but there were a few slips in those 105 days, the last one 23 days ago.

I'm glad you've stuck with it, sortofhomecomin! It's not always easy but it's always worth it.