PuckLuck

I'm not having a good night friends. I feel absolutely terrible.

I'm wondering how many of you have had chronic depression since you can remember? For me, ever since I was a kid.

Dee74

Hi Puck

I've had depression, if not all my life, for a long as I can remember.
I was a kid with cerebral palsy but a good mind...a lot of people were unknowingly or knowingly cruel.

It is what it is.

At this stage of life - mid 50s- I can finally let all that stuff go. I'm also on a regular dose of an anti depressant...I've had a little bit of counselling - I had a full and productive life with meaning, and - the biggie - I'm not poisoning my mind with alcohol anymore.

Not sure how helpful any of that is - I just wanted you to know there is hope, and better times ahead

D

anxiousrock

I have suffered from depression a long time. I can only really deal with it because my anxiety is worse than my depression.

luvchunk

I have suffered from depression at times in my life. I do know that alcohol makes it way worse. Being in day five of my sobriety, I am feeling very down. I am looking forward to feeling better soon. Keep on moving forward.

PuckLuck

You're such an inspiration.

least

I've been seriously depressed most of my adult life. I see my shrink 3 times a year and am on an antiD, which works.

I know that early in my recovery I was very depressed. Some of that got better just from being sober, but my antiDs leveled the playing field for me and allow me to have a normal life.

PuckLuck

Not to be overly dramatic, but on the Sopranos I remember when Tony's therapist asked him what he feels and he said nothing. Nothing at all.

That's pretty much exactly how I feel.

PuckLuck

I'm on welbutrin and abilify. And a heavy dose.

sortofhomecomin

My alcohol abuse was the main cause of my depression. However, this isn't the case for everyone. If you have both alcohol use disorder and underlying depression, both need to be treated.

Dee74

Thanks for the kind words PL.
I hope the meds will continue to bed in and work better for you.

It is really good to see you back here

D

PuckLuck

The Wellbutrin seemed to be a miracle for me my 2-3 weeks of taking it, but I am now back to my own in the gutter thinking. Probably the alcohol.

Dee74

I would say so man, Alcohol stops so many meds from working properly.

D

PuckLuck

The booze is so strong. It's insane.

Dee74

You're stronger. Don't make this a bender.
Give your meds a chance, PL.

D

PuckLuck

I can't and I won't. That last drive drinking booze with a stranger was a big wake up. Who does that? I don't even have a car. I was offering booze for a ride I guess. Jesus.

least

Taking antiDs while drinking will negate the effects of the antiDs. It wasn't til I was sober for a while that my meds started to work again as they should.

PuckLuck

You are absolutely right. Christ, at least I'll have stories forever.

Zencat

My depression/mental symptoms/maladaptive behaviors started a 12+ years old because of childhood trauma. Due to my 'no fault illness', addiction and emotional/mental symptoms grew larger as I aged to the point of self destruction.

I found a way out. It was hard, it was self-searching until it became apparent. Unless I changed for the better, I'm a grave site (if I'm lucky).
Us SR to put together your life because you are worth it in a big way!!!

Zencat

P.S. Psych Meds and mind altering substances!

Not only there is a danger of Psych drugs interacting with alcohol to produce aberrant thoughts and behavior. Drugs mixed with psych meds, as with alcohol can cause extensive tissue/organ damage. Sometimes this damage can be permanently disabling or cause of death. Through psychiatric disorder symptoms or complete body failure! Your dealing with fire!

This is critical stuff here. Please continue to reach out for help

Steely

Maybe now you are back on your BP meds the depression will lift PuckLuck. I hope so, because I know how awful it can be.

The one thing we CAN do to improve the situation, or at least not make it worse, is to not drink alcohol. It ALWAYS screws things up for me, and as you are aware is a depressant in itself. We don't need more of the same.

Good to see you back.