Today is Day 1 for this SR Newbie
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Nov 2020
Posts: 7
Today is Day 1 for this SR Newbie
Hello everyone
I've known for a while, but I'm finally admitting to myself that I am an alcoholic. (It actually feels so freeing to type that out!). My drinking has gone from bad to worse to RED ALERT STATUS these past few months and I'm making the decision today to start the hard work to actually tackle this beast. I've tried to quit previously, but have never taken the steps needed to create any sort of external accountability. I'm single and have been able to effectively "hide" my problem from the outside world, which has made things even worse during these COVID days where most of the time I don't actually interact with people except on a webcam. When I've tried to quit on my own, I have failed. Repeatedly. So... it's time for me to step up my game and posting here is the first step for me in creating some external accountability. FWIW I also plan on finding AA meetings to attend as well.
So to all the awesome folks here on SR: I'm an alcoholic and I'm excited to tell you that I'm beginning my battle against alcohol starting today 11/7/2020. All the best to everyone.
I've known for a while, but I'm finally admitting to myself that I am an alcoholic. (It actually feels so freeing to type that out!). My drinking has gone from bad to worse to RED ALERT STATUS these past few months and I'm making the decision today to start the hard work to actually tackle this beast. I've tried to quit previously, but have never taken the steps needed to create any sort of external accountability. I'm single and have been able to effectively "hide" my problem from the outside world, which has made things even worse during these COVID days where most of the time I don't actually interact with people except on a webcam. When I've tried to quit on my own, I have failed. Repeatedly. So... it's time for me to step up my game and posting here is the first step for me in creating some external accountability. FWIW I also plan on finding AA meetings to attend as well.
So to all the awesome folks here on SR: I'm an alcoholic and I'm excited to tell you that I'm beginning my battle against alcohol starting today 11/7/2020. All the best to everyone.
Community Greeter
Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,569
It's great to have you with us, ChooseToLive. 
I felt huge relief when I came here and admitted my alcoholism. No one in my life really understood what I was going through - but the people here sure did. I knew I was no longer alone - and that meant everything. You can get free. As you said - let's do this.
I felt huge relief when I came here and admitted my alcoholism. No one in my life really understood what I was going through - but the people here sure did. I knew I was no longer alone - and that meant everything. You can get free. As you said - let's do this.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: California
Posts: 13,044
Welcome to SR you will find lots of support on here! You may want to join the November of 2020 class, sometimes it helps to have others at the same point in the recovery journey as you. Another great thread is the 24 hour thread, you can check in each day, and you’ll get to know lots of people who will offer lots of support!
Member
Join Date: Feb 2016
Posts: 3,597
Great start. Getting rid of all the alcohol in your place is essential. The next step, if you haven't done it already, is to jettison all drinking apparatus, shot glasses, beer steins, wine glasses, all that junk. For me, joining a class and forming bonds with people was a huge help. Read daily and post daily.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Nov 2020
Posts: 7
Just a quick update as to hold myself accountable:
I unfortunately gave in to my urges the night I posted this and went to the store to buy alcohol. (which I drank) On the plus side, I was SUCCESSFUL at not drinking last night so I am 1 day sober!
This may seem like a silly idea, but it worked for me last night and I anticipate it helping me tonight and in future nights. I bought a small K-Safe online which is a timed-lock safe that only opens when the timer hits zero. I locked my car keys and wallet in it during the evening hours to prevent me from going to the store, which has been my biggest problem. I might have no alcohol in my place but it's just too easy to drive to the store to get some.
Also, in case you might be worried about me having access to my car if an emergency happened, it's plastic and breakable if needed. But it's serving as a wonderful physical and psychological barrier to curtail my urges to drive to the store.
Here's to day 1 of sobriety and onward to day 2!
I unfortunately gave in to my urges the night I posted this and went to the store to buy alcohol. (which I drank) On the plus side, I was SUCCESSFUL at not drinking last night so I am 1 day sober!
This may seem like a silly idea, but it worked for me last night and I anticipate it helping me tonight and in future nights. I bought a small K-Safe online which is a timed-lock safe that only opens when the timer hits zero. I locked my car keys and wallet in it during the evening hours to prevent me from going to the store, which has been my biggest problem. I might have no alcohol in my place but it's just too easy to drive to the store to get some.
Also, in case you might be worried about me having access to my car if an emergency happened, it's plastic and breakable if needed. But it's serving as a wonderful physical and psychological barrier to curtail my urges to drive to the store.
Here's to day 1 of sobriety and onward to day 2!
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
