stickyone

Today I work on day 173

It was a little up and down since last week. Stress, anxiety depression but I am still sober. I took a few days off too refocus and get my head clear. I can't remember having any dreams during my time of recovery but I did have a dream that I had relapse? But in my dream it's like no one cared anything about it. For me I took it as a sign . In the last week I found myself comparing my life with others. And I could feel that self pity that I lived in during my addiction. During my addiction the only dreams I had was nightmares when I was withdrawing. That would scare me and I would be good then relapse back to the same path of addiction. The message I got was my recovery is my recovery and I shouldn't matter what others think. I shouldn't judge other's or make it my business on how they live.

Dee74

Relapse dreams are pretty common. If you got something positive from it that’s great.

Congrats on your milestone

Sober45

Congratulations on 173 days! I think your conclusions about the dream makes perfect sense. With booze out of the picture our instincts can lead the way. Keep following your gut

Anna

173 days of sobriety is great! I had some pretty strange dreams about relapsing, too.

stickyone

Thank you everyone for your replies. I haven't been eating well lately started to give my self a pass and eating sweets alot because of the beginning of the holiday to start. But I would find my mind cloudy and stomach dealing with digestive issues. Lack of energy. I'm grateful I had taken off those days to refocus and work on myself.

D122y

After that many clean days, it is all mental.

Born again non drinker. Hate the stuff. Booze is a neuro toxin.

Natural highs are much better. Adrenaline, dopamine, endorphins, and melatonin.

I am still using caffeine, in the form of instant coffee and pre work out. 2 or 3 cups of coffee a day. 1 dose of pre work out.

Addict for life.

Thanks.

stickyone

Yes I do drink caffeine aswell. Depends on my anxiety if I feel very anxious I will relax a bit on caffeine. But most days I drink tea for mornings and cup coffee mid day. The. Pre-work out before exercising. So I say it's around the recommended 400mg per a day.

And yes alot of mental stuff. Which has been alot of my self care focus. Have to putin the work this covid-19 does have alot of effect on mental health. It's time to focus on the things that matter.