Hodd

That’s not old, is it? You’re mature enough to do clever stuff and not so old to be restricted. I’m 51 and just started retraining to be a teacher. I wasted the years 2005 to 2017 as a drunk waster. I snapped out of it and have plenty of life left as have you.

Steely

The highway, the bloody pawnshops.

Those were the days.

I've had my taste, don't want anymore.

MythOfSisyphus

I dunno, we all have something to complain about! There's an immense amount of misery in the world right now for many reasons, the pandemic being a huge one. Everyone is getting worn down by it- here we are with most of the year occupied with it and we're just now hitting a new peak. I feel like "urge surfing" is necessary to deal with 2020, not just the sobriety aspect of it. We have to consciously remind ourselves that this is just a moment, a time we'll have to muddle through to get to better times.

And I get some of what you're feeling. I'm 51 years old and not living the life I expected when I was 25. Part of living is coming to terms with life on life's terms, if that makes sense. I must also stress that sobriety is necessary for people like us (ie drunks) but sobriety alone isn't enough. Being sober will make it possible to have a meaningful life but we still have to put in the work. That sounds pretty obvious as I type it out but it took me a long time to really understand that.