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Originally Posted by Flowing 
I'm not sure if I want to continue this fruitless pursuit of sobriety or just accept the fact that I'm always going to be broken in some way or another and stop fighting for perfection.
Your title reads "I fell"
I disagree. I think you jumped. You didn't have to. That was a choice.
Nothing in nature or in life is perfect. That's what makes everything perfect. Maybe if you'll stop TRYING so hard and just BE - you'll be - okay.
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ill just say I HATED my first 2 months! I'm only 4 months sober but I would relapse every time after 1.5-2 months. Always. Then circumstances changed and I wanted it a little bit more. I made it to 3 months and realized wow! things suddenly felt a little bit easier. It was noticeable how much less I was struggling. Cravings got a little less and I gained a little more hope. But I know how you feel I was just there.
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Originally Posted by Flowing View Post (I fell)
”I'm not sure if I want to continue this fruitless pursuit of sobriety or just accept the fact that I'm always going to be broken in some way or another and stop fighting for perfection.”
yes; YES, stop fighting for perfection. it is unattainable. you will always fall short.
this is not at all equatable to the pursuit of sobriety.
sobriety can be done and is done and lived by millions of imperfect folk.
you can be one of them!
”I'm not sure if I want to continue this fruitless pursuit of sobriety or just accept the fact that I'm always going to be broken in some way or another and stop fighting for perfection.”
yes; YES, stop fighting for perfection. it is unattainable. you will always fall short.
this is not at all equatable to the pursuit of sobriety.
sobriety can be done and is done and lived by millions of imperfect folk.
you can be one of them!
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Thank you all so much for your replies.
I made a deal with myself on Saturday. That deal was to drink a half bottle of whisky to stop the feelings i was feeling then get straight back on the wagon......
Well its now Tuesday and I haven't stopped drinking.
I absolutely know that sobriety is the right thing for me but I just can't deal with the rawness of it. I have come to need the anesthetic of alcohol to navigate reality. Pathetic, I know.
I made a deal with myself on Saturday. That deal was to drink a half bottle of whisky to stop the feelings i was feeling then get straight back on the wagon......
Well its now Tuesday and I haven't stopped drinking.
I absolutely know that sobriety is the right thing for me but I just can't deal with the rawness of it. I have come to need the anesthetic of alcohol to navigate reality. Pathetic, I know.
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You are to me, a person that has a whole lot of precious worth. Try to think-up ways today than can help you be as safe as u possibly can. Maybe tapper off alcohol today and get some nutrition and sleep.
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I have come to need the anesthetic of alcohol to navigate reality.
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