I need support
 

Hi,
I am back, I had 5 months sober and have been having a heck of a train wreck, shame ridden, sick beyond any human should experience 7 months.
Today is day 5. I have a blind date tonight with a person who is just so sweet and been speaking too for 2 months. Thought just a couple of drinks to ease the uncomfortableness.
Went on facebook and first message I read was from a person that has really struggling announce 15 months of sobriety. The think is nobody ever posts I have a year or 15 month or 23 month
etc...it stinks....Its always an uplifting positive grateful post. Full of gratitude for life and sobriety. I am emotional but I had that glimmer of hope. This person I am meeting tonight
knows my situation. Has been Sober for 12 years. I could really use a new friend. Since the ex is so distant and is just very blunt with me most times. IDK I am all over the place sorry.
The reason for my post is because I miss all of you guys and I want to be a part of this community again. I want to be clear headed, sober and healthy.
xoxo Faith

I'm sorry to hear you've been drinking, but I'm glad you have a few days sober adding up. Keep doing it!

Welcome back.

Welcome back! Since your new friend has been sober for a long time, I doubt he would want you to show up tipsy. You'll be much better company if you're sober.

Show up sober and as you are, anxiety and all. Then come back here to tell us how awesome it was!

I sympathise with you Faith . Anyone who can go 5 days is doing well , so don't have those couple of drinks . Just be yourself . It'll be the same for your date with regards to any , ( possible ) , uncomfortableness .
If you managed 5 months before then you can do it again .
Best wishes to you .

Faith, you probably still have 'hangxiety'. The remnants of alcohol. I usually need 2 weeks to recover and sleep well.

Drink some Gatorade and watch a movie to distract yourself. That's what I do to pass time. I will go out for a quick walk around the block as well and that makes me feel better.

I hope your date goes well!

Hang in there. If the date is causing you to consider drinking maybe consider postponing. I'm sure he will understand since he knows your situation.
Just a thought.

Or stay strong, push through and see what happens. As long as you are sober everything will work out.

Faith, welcome back.

You will find lots of support from this community.

It is the anxious energy from the withdrawel. Thank you for pointing that out. I am not calling it a date. I need to take care of myself first before I embark in a relationship. I will meet for a cup of coffee and stay strong....Thanks guys.

Thank you everyone for the support. Really miss you guys. The softer easier way is to stay close to this community

Welcome back Faith :)

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I just checked in............and I saw one more message since my last post and I knew it would be DEE ..Boston time and Adelaide? time is a bit off. or is it Queens

I'm in Queensland, yeah :)

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Faith, what happened to the Red Sox?? I am sure everyone misses Tom Brady! I saw Red Sox vs the NY Yankees as an 11 year old at Fenway Park. Someone hit a home run over the 'Green Monster' into the street!

welcome back, faith. and way to go on five days sober!
and you know somebody will ask about or suggest a plan...might as well be me: ideas about how to go forward and not end up in the same place?
your new friend might have some very good experience to share.

Stay sober and enjoy your coffee. :hug:

Welcome back!:grouphug: