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Day 34,
Soon to be five weeks. Today was quite stressful but I handled things responsibly and made sure to treat myself after.
I know I deserve to be loved and respected, needs which can never be met by any kind of addictive behavior.
Soon to be five weeks. Today was quite stressful but I handled things responsibly and made sure to treat myself after.
I know I deserve to be loved and respected, needs which can never be met by any kind of addictive behavior.
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Thanks Dee,
I feel encouraged too. Tempations still happen from time to time, but I just remember to trust God and my community/family through these forums. In doing so, I have a sense of peace even when I'm reminded of my past.
Day 36.
I feel encouraged too. Tempations still happen from time to time, but I just remember to trust God and my community/family through these forums. In doing so, I have a sense of peace even when I'm reminded of my past.
Day 36.
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Day 40,
I'm super proud of myself for continuing to be responsible and keep this log. I started thinking about how constantly I'll post here - as cravings diminish I might ease back until I do weekly check-ins like I did with my previous journal. For now, it's too early for that and I'd like to have at least a few months of peace and stability before I stand back and see where I'm at. Whatever I do, I want it to be done out a genuine desire for recovery and not to disengage/mechanize the process. Will reflect on things in a future post.
Have a great week all, love you.
I'm super proud of myself for continuing to be responsible and keep this log. I started thinking about how constantly I'll post here - as cravings diminish I might ease back until I do weekly check-ins like I did with my previous journal. For now, it's too early for that and I'd like to have at least a few months of peace and stability before I stand back and see where I'm at. Whatever I do, I want it to be done out a genuine desire for recovery and not to disengage/mechanize the process. Will reflect on things in a future post.
Have a great week all, love you.
How has it been 41 days already? Wow, that's awesome though. Good to hear you're adjusting to your new city and staying strong in your recovery. I remember thinking that you made it seem so easy when I read the old thread you had, and while I'm sure it's not always, I admire your conviction and dedication to bettering yourself.
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Thanks dpac,
Truthfully, it wasn't easy for me to get started. Even in my old thread, I think at at one point I relapsed and stopped visiting the forums for a bit out of shame. Thankfully, I came back and started posting regularly and engaging with others. From then on, I managed to maintain consistent sobriety over time, to the point where even though I have some new issues I'm working through I feel confident and eternally free from my old life.
Last night I had some intensely triggering dreams/images, but I'm still doing well and on day 43. I guess they were reminders that I should be thankful where I'm at and keep taking this seriously. I've been telling myself I don't want anything remotely addictive in my life anymore, and taking real steps to realize that. Couldn't do it without your help and the counsel and support of other members here.
Truthfully, it wasn't easy for me to get started. Even in my old thread, I think at at one point I relapsed and stopped visiting the forums for a bit out of shame. Thankfully, I came back and started posting regularly and engaging with others. From then on, I managed to maintain consistent sobriety over time, to the point where even though I have some new issues I'm working through I feel confident and eternally free from my old life.
Last night I had some intensely triggering dreams/images, but I'm still doing well and on day 43. I guess they were reminders that I should be thankful where I'm at and keep taking this seriously. I've been telling myself I don't want anything remotely addictive in my life anymore, and taking real steps to realize that. Couldn't do it without your help and the counsel and support of other members here.
Honestly I think we've probably all attempted sobriety and then relapsed and gave up on the forum. I joined in 2017 but didn't get actually sober until 2019. It took me those two extra years to really come to terms with my problem and start taking the steps to achieve lasting sobriety. While I don't think it's absolutely necessary to need to hit a bottom to take sobriety seriously, I do think there's something poignant about just being so tired of it all that you give up and surrender. That's what happened to me, anyway.
Thanks for sharing that, though. It's important to know that, like with any type of social media, we only see part of the picture of what others post and there's a whole lot more going on in their real lives. Glad that you're still getting on well.
Thanks for sharing that, though. It's important to know that, like with any type of social media, we only see part of the picture of what others post and there's a whole lot more going on in their real lives. Glad that you're still getting on well.
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I had a dream I relapsed last night, which was a little scary... I even remembered thinking 'day 1' as I woke from it. During my previous recovery, I had maybe 2-3 dreams of a similar nature over the course of a few years. I guess if that's a subconscious concern of mine, it's a good thing though.
After that, I managed to get a lot done during the day and am continuing to love on myself. Been feeling a bit down, so remembering to encourage and treat myself as I deal with those natural emotions is important.
Day 48.
After that, I managed to get a lot done during the day and am continuing to love on myself. Been feeling a bit down, so remembering to encourage and treat myself as I deal with those natural emotions is important.
Day 48.
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