Day 2 - Happy 51st birthday
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Day 2 - Happy 51st birthday
Today is my second day sober and my 51st birthday. This is the first birthday since my teens that I haven’t had any alcohol and it feels weird. My brain keeps going into auto- “ it’s your birthday... you can drink if you want and start again tomorrow” . But I dont want to do that and have to go through day 1 yet again for the umpteenth time.
It’s about 6pm and after going out to lunch with my husband who had a glass of wine with his lunch, it’s now the witching hour when my brain is trying to trick me into having a drink after doing so well all day even in that dangerous lunchtime situation.
but I am sick of drinking and know I can do this. I feel sweaty when the craving come, but they seem to pass with time and then I feel ok again. I just want to get through the rest of tonight sober and get up to face day 3 tomorrow, knowing that for the first time in my life I managed to get through my birthday without a drink- hanging on by a thread
It’s about 6pm and after going out to lunch with my husband who had a glass of wine with his lunch, it’s now the witching hour when my brain is trying to trick me into having a drink after doing so well all day even in that dangerous lunchtime situation.
but I am sick of drinking and know I can do this. I feel sweaty when the craving come, but they seem to pass with time and then I feel ok again. I just want to get through the rest of tonight sober and get up to face day 3 tomorrow, knowing that for the first time in my life I managed to get through my birthday without a drink- hanging on by a thread
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Happy birthday and congratulations on day 2! That's a lot, to have a significant event like a birthday with someone drinking near you during it. Good on you for coming here and checking in. What are you going to do for the rest of the evening? Bubble bath and tea? Something else? It's midnight where I am so I'm headed to bed; I hope you have a wonderful rest of your first sober birthday in so many years.
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Thanks guys and happy birthday too orchid1. It sure feels weird but I guess this is just the start of the road of new experiences . So far so good feeling stronger every hr, but also looking forward to going to bed so I can wake up and celebrate day 3. Just hope I can get some sleep tonight
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Happy birthday.
My biggest danger zone has been while driving home from work. For the first several weeks I would stop somewhere for a big cup of tea to drink instead, which was very effective.
For the last seven months, nearly everything I've done has been the first time since teens that I did it without drinking. The idea that it will be less fun by not drinking is completely false, and actually the opposite is true. The AV is a trickster that only tells lies.
My biggest danger zone has been while driving home from work. For the first several weeks I would stop somewhere for a big cup of tea to drink instead, which was very effective.
For the last seven months, nearly everything I've done has been the first time since teens that I did it without drinking. The idea that it will be less fun by not drinking is completely false, and actually the opposite is true. The AV is a trickster that only tells lies.
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Agree with Cityboy. Find a replacement for your witching hour. For me, I substituted with sugary drinks at first and kept myself distracted with movies, hot baths, reading & posting on SR....whatever worked. I also watched videos about alcoholism. This is your "reprogramming period". I think idle time in early recovery is the most dangerous thing. It's difficult in the early days but it absolutely does get better....a lot better!
Hopefully this is day 3 for you. Whatever it is, please post and let us know how you're doing.
Hopefully this is day 3 for you. Whatever it is, please post and let us know how you're doing.
You're giving yourself a great gift of sobriety. Member
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Wow- overwhelmed with the replies on logging on today- yes I have made it to the early afternoon of day 3- yay yay yay and feel like I have made some progress. I am just hopping it will get easier!
Slept ok last night but still woke up feeling lousy initially.
listening to an audiobook “ The unexpected joy of being sober” is helping, and also reading SR.
thanks for the positive wishes. You are right about idle time being dangerous- it’s when the AV does its hardest to convince me that having just a little booze would be alright- I have to keep fighting it and not let it take charge, when it’s me who’s in charge!!! Getting angry with the AV helps to kill it but it always seems to come back and find new ways to taunt/tempt me.
Ring on day 4 tomorrow!, feeling very determined now
i know I can do this
Slept ok last night but still woke up feeling lousy initially.
listening to an audiobook “ The unexpected joy of being sober” is helping, and also reading SR.
thanks for the positive wishes. You are right about idle time being dangerous- it’s when the AV does its hardest to convince me that having just a little booze would be alright- I have to keep fighting it and not let it take charge, when it’s me who’s in charge!!! Getting angry with the AV helps to kill it but it always seems to come back and find new ways to taunt/tempt me.
Ring on day 4 tomorrow!, feeling very determined now
i know I can do this
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