"I don't drink"
I'm glad I came back to check this post....YES...being complacent? ...I truly, honestly thought 8 years...(which is many, many days, many new habits)....TRULY THOUGHT this exact thought to myself - "You have not had a drink in 8 years....its logical that I can have some drinks tonight and just don't drink again for a long period of time"......I always heard it got worse...but I again thought....its ridiculous that I will be worse I will only drink ONE night-tonight" and that is IT......
And when I did....I was pretty good with the amount.....don't remember how many but nothing like before....but then a couple days went by and I figured..well that wasn't bad...and I feel like an "adult" that can have a few drinks....and I drank again....and then I noticed I drank 1x a week for a while...and then before i realized it, I was out of control ...and the initial desire I had to stop drinking in 2005 never would come back...everytime I tried to quit again within a few weeks....I would be on another binge...this has continued for 6 years.....
But 25 days ago....I felt like I did when I quit in 2005...its very hard to explain but I KNEW I was done....it was a different feeling and I am not going to test it ever again...That is the problem...I know you said you didn't want to drink right now anyway...but please remember this story...because I am strong, I am smart, I am educated....and to me after 8 years it shouldn't have turned into a problem and it snuck right up on me and stole my desire to stay stopped...
Congratulations on 6 months and wish you many more YEARS of sobriety.
And when I did....I was pretty good with the amount.....don't remember how many but nothing like before....but then a couple days went by and I figured..well that wasn't bad...and I feel like an "adult" that can have a few drinks....and I drank again....and then I noticed I drank 1x a week for a while...and then before i realized it, I was out of control ...and the initial desire I had to stop drinking in 2005 never would come back...everytime I tried to quit again within a few weeks....I would be on another binge...this has continued for 6 years.....
But 25 days ago....I felt like I did when I quit in 2005...its very hard to explain but I KNEW I was done....it was a different feeling and I am not going to test it ever again...That is the problem...I know you said you didn't want to drink right now anyway...but please remember this story...because I am strong, I am smart, I am educated....and to me after 8 years it shouldn't have turned into a problem and it snuck right up on me and stole my desire to stay stopped...
Congratulations on 6 months and wish you many more YEARS of sobriety.
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