Almost bought a bottle of wine
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Almost bought a bottle of wine
I came so close to drinking today. I can't believe it. I was even telling myself I'd just have 1 bottle of wine and then start again on Day 1.
This craving to drink came out of nowhere. I'm very stressed about work and I think that's what triggered it. It's scary.
This craving to drink came out of nowhere. I'm very stressed about work and I think that's what triggered it. It's scary.
I feel you, Mary. Yesterday was day 50 for me. I've been having trouble sleeping because of stress and anxiety and am absolutely exhausted. I didn't take a drink but it would be so easy just to buy a case of beer and knock myself out. Kuddos to you for staying strong. Like Surrendered said "We don't drink anymore."
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Thank you for the encouragement. I think I will order some food instead and maybe go for a walk later.
Next week I will be 8 months sober. It would be hard to have start from the beginning again, at this point.
Next week I will be 8 months sober. It would be hard to have start from the beginning again, at this point.
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This is very scary because for me....when I started to have these "big" cravings... I eventually drank.
I always feel really scared for a person when I see posts like this....but 8 months is alot of practice being sober and I hope you are able to get past this feeling...
If work is stressing you out....I did this when I was working and newly sober years ago....I wrote down on the pad I carried (I always had a pad or a day planner) ....I don't know if you carry one....but certain meetings and people would really tick me off....so I had a couple of things I wrote down that I could stare at when I was around these people or in meetings...
I wrote LOL.....I would stare at this one when I was around people I didn't like and it means "LIVE AND LET LIVE"...It meant to me, live my own life...don't let so and so get under my skin...and let so and so do their thing ...and at the same time I would stare at this "LOL" in these situations I would try to take some deep breaths and zone out if it was a situation where I didn't have to pay too close of attention. Before I got sober when so and so would tick me off I would feel the need to jump in and correct the person or intervine in someway or another...and looking at LOL...kept a smile on my face (cause of the acroynm) and also kept my MOUTH shut...which led to myself having a more peaceful day and less cravings.
Another one...when I would feel stressed in meetings or getting things done....I wrote down was FTF.....First Things First....this saying would make me pause...for a minute...decide what was important or priority and it would immediately calm me down cause we as humans can only do one thing at a time....
So maybe these tools can help you...they did help me alot.
Even if you write down something totally different...like if you have a husband or something you can write an acronym (JLM)..."Joey loves me"....anything to keep your stress down in the situations you get stressed out in.
I always feel really scared for a person when I see posts like this....but 8 months is alot of practice being sober and I hope you are able to get past this feeling...
If work is stressing you out....I did this when I was working and newly sober years ago....I wrote down on the pad I carried (I always had a pad or a day planner) ....I don't know if you carry one....but certain meetings and people would really tick me off....so I had a couple of things I wrote down that I could stare at when I was around these people or in meetings...
I wrote LOL.....I would stare at this one when I was around people I didn't like and it means "LIVE AND LET LIVE"...It meant to me, live my own life...don't let so and so get under my skin...and let so and so do their thing ...and at the same time I would stare at this "LOL" in these situations I would try to take some deep breaths and zone out if it was a situation where I didn't have to pay too close of attention. Before I got sober when so and so would tick me off I would feel the need to jump in and correct the person or intervine in someway or another...and looking at LOL...kept a smile on my face (cause of the acroynm) and also kept my MOUTH shut...which led to myself having a more peaceful day and less cravings.
Another one...when I would feel stressed in meetings or getting things done....I wrote down was FTF.....First Things First....this saying would make me pause...for a minute...decide what was important or priority and it would immediately calm me down cause we as humans can only do one thing at a time....
So maybe these tools can help you...they did help me alot.
Even if you write down something totally different...like if you have a husband or something you can write an acronym (JLM)..."Joey loves me"....anything to keep your stress down in the situations you get stressed out in.
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Thank you. It was great to wake up sober this morning. Can't believe how close I came. Wasn't even on planing on having one glass. I was going to drink the full bottle. How awful this morning could have been.
It was also my birthday two days ago. Maybe I associate birthdays with drinking. I'm just really glad to still be sober.
It was also my birthday two days ago. Maybe I associate birthdays with drinking. I'm just really glad to still be sober.
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This is very scary because for me....when I started to have these "big" cravings... I eventually drank.
I always feel really scared for a person when I see posts like this....but 8 months is alot of practice being sober and I hope you are able to get past this feeling...
If work is stressing you out....I did this when I was working and newly sober years ago....I wrote down on the pad I carried (I always had a pad or a day planner) ....I don't know if you carry one....but certain meetings and people would really tick me off....so I had a couple of things I wrote down that I could stare at when I was around these people or in meetings...
I wrote LOL.....I would stare at this one when I was around people I didn't like and it means "LIVE AND LET LIVE"...It meant to me, live my own life...don't let so and so get under my skin...and let so and so do their thing ...and at the same time I would stare at this "LOL" in these situations I would try to take some deep breaths and zone out if it was a situation where I didn't have to pay too close of attention. Before I got sober when so and so would tick me off I would feel the need to jump in and correct the person or intervine in someway or another...and looking at LOL...kept a smile on my face (cause of the acroynm) and also kept my MOUTH shut...which led to myself having a more peaceful day and less cravings.
Another one...when I would feel stressed in meetings or getting things done....I wrote down was FTF.....First Things First....this saying would make me pause...for a minute...decide what was important or priority and it would immediately calm me down cause we as humans can only do one thing at a time....
So maybe these tools can help you...they did help me alot.
Even if you write down something totally different...like if you have a husband or something you can write an acronym (JLM)..."Joey loves me"....anything to keep your stress down in the situations you get stressed out in.
I always feel really scared for a person when I see posts like this....but 8 months is alot of practice being sober and I hope you are able to get past this feeling...
If work is stressing you out....I did this when I was working and newly sober years ago....I wrote down on the pad I carried (I always had a pad or a day planner) ....I don't know if you carry one....but certain meetings and people would really tick me off....so I had a couple of things I wrote down that I could stare at when I was around these people or in meetings...
I wrote LOL.....I would stare at this one when I was around people I didn't like and it means "LIVE AND LET LIVE"...It meant to me, live my own life...don't let so and so get under my skin...and let so and so do their thing ...and at the same time I would stare at this "LOL" in these situations I would try to take some deep breaths and zone out if it was a situation where I didn't have to pay too close of attention. Before I got sober when so and so would tick me off I would feel the need to jump in and correct the person or intervine in someway or another...and looking at LOL...kept a smile on my face (cause of the acroynm) and also kept my MOUTH shut...which led to myself having a more peaceful day and less cravings.
Another one...when I would feel stressed in meetings or getting things done....I wrote down was FTF.....First Things First....this saying would make me pause...for a minute...decide what was important or priority and it would immediately calm me down cause we as humans can only do one thing at a time....
So maybe these tools can help you...they did help me alot.
Even if you write down something totally different...like if you have a husband or something you can write an acronym (JLM)..."Joey loves me"....anything to keep your stress down in the situations you get stressed out in.
Thanks for sharing those tools. I will try them out.
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