Alcohol an expensive sink cleaner I have thrown about 10 cans of beer and 4 bottles of beer down the sink in the last week after consuming alcohol. This cycle of giving in to cravings - drinking - throwing alcohol down the sink - swearing never to drink again only to be drinking 3 days later has been going on far too long. A silver lining is I have not had any spirts for about 10 days after pouring half a bootle of Jameson’s Irish whiskey down the sink. I had to work hard last week and felt I needed/ deserved a drink. Almost every emotion I have seems to automatically lead to a strong desire to drink, my brain seems hardwired to it. I have work to do on this. |
Have you tried online meetings Stable - just about every recovery method has them now. D |
Originally Posted by Stable
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I have thrown about 10 cans of beer and 4 bottles of beer down the sink in the last week after consuming alcohol. This cycle of giving in to cravings - drinking - throwing alcohol down the sink - swearing never to drink again only to be drinking 3 days later has been going on far too long. A silver lining is I have not had any spirts for about 10 days after pouring half a bootle of Jameson’s Irish whiskey down the sink. I had to work hard last week and felt I needed/ deserved a drink. Almost every emotion I have seems to automatically lead to a strong desire to drink, my brain seems hardwired to it. I have work to do on this. Alcohol was my go-to for everything thing.
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Stable, everything in my life was a reason for me to drink, too. It's what our minds do. You can get past this. :) |
Great thread title! :lmao: A person who can make a quality contribution like that to the forums, can and will get sober! |
I had to learn here that the crave attacked my emotional mind, the resistance to the crave was my analytical mind. Left brain vs Right brain. That is why the whole process made me feel insane. As the physical addiction of the body dies down, the mental addiction (which is sort of physical because it directly impacts the brain's chemistry) lingers for years. The mental addiction works a myriad of angles to get me to relapse. If I could think about it, it was a reason to relapse. Even now, the crave is there. I read here that folks don't crave and I can relate. But, I also relate to those that relapse after years of sobriety. Left vs Right. Booze is poison. I have unlearned drinking. Thanks. |
What's really weird is that I was obessed with alcohol before I even took my first drink. |
Most importantly you continue to keep trying and that is awesome! Keep coming here and keep it up! |
I couldn't stay sober until I got to the point where I wanted to be sober more than I wanted to drink. |
I hope you find what you need to stay sober for good Stable :) D |
Yeah Stable, if the wind blew a certain way or the sky was not quite the shade of blue I wanted, it was a reason to drink. We need to get to the place that there are no reasons to pick up a drink and the realization that drinking won't change the wind or the sky or anything else. If you drink because you are happy, the happiness is quickly extinguished. If you drink because you are hungry, angry, lonely or tired, all of those will get worse with drinking. Glad you are back and posting. You can get this figured out. |
Originally Posted by Stable
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I had to work hard last week and felt I needed/ deserved a drink. I still don’t get why you source so much booze. If you bought 2 bottles of beer, I can sort of get that, but not 10+ bottles. But that’s not the issue. I’m upset and disappointed to read your post. I noticed you’d been gone, and I hoped for a better outcome. You’re not daft by any means, but you’re missing out on so much in life by drinking like this. Whatever you’re doing now isn’t working, and to get that “deserve a drink” mindset out your head needs help. Ask your GP to start with. Good luck, but please stop repeating this cycle. |
Like Potluck and Anna pointed out, reasons for drinking never end. Any reason can also have its polar opposite, and that's a reason to drink also. I thought I was the only person to have that realization, because I'd never heard it expressed before I came to this forum. I think variations of these opposites may be nearly universal. Spotting those polar opposites as causes to drink may have been helpful too, because it helped me understand that contradictory circumstances can both be reasons to drink. A bad day was a good excuse. A good day called for celebration, and somehow drinking was always the endpoint. This suggests to me that there probably is another reason, the real reason. That reason is addiction. The way to deal with alcoholism for me was to forget about reasons, and put my energy into changing my behavior. It turns out that is what it took. You can think and reason until the cows come home, but what good is that if it always leads to a drink? Put away the self psychotherapy and use behavior modification instead. You can still do the psychotherapy, but understand you have to change how you behave around alcohol first, and then you change how you think later. |
Drinking was a habit for me and I enjoyed the ritual of making a drink, then watching a favorite TV show or grabbing a book to read. After many years, that ritual turned into drinking several bottles of wine or just taking straight shots from a bottle of whatever booze was handy. One thing that helped when I first stopped drinking was to always have a glass of juice or soft drink close by-that helped fulfill my habit and the sugar calmed down the cravings. I also can’t have alcohol in the house....it’s too tempting to sneak “just one sip” that turns into an entire of bottle of liquor gone. Just little tips that helped me break the cycle. I hope they can help you too, Stable. Your thread title made me LOL! Thanks for that and hang in there. :wink3: |
Originally Posted by Stable
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I have thrown about 10 cans of beer and 4 bottles of beer down the sink in the last week after consuming alcohol. This cycle of giving in to cravings - drinking - throwing alcohol down the sink - swearing never to drink again only to be drinking 3 days later has been going on far too long. A silver lining is I have not had any spirts for about 10 days after pouring half a bootle of Jameson’s Irish whiskey down the sink. I had to work hard last week and felt I needed/ deserved a drink. Almost every emotion I have seems to automatically lead to a strong desire to drink, my brain seems hardwired to it. I have work to do on this. |
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