Noam19

Hey Everyone. I had a couple slip ups over the last 10 days. Once before we went out on vacation and once the day we returned. I'm not sure what to chalk it up to. Before we left I think it was over-confidence as I have had several long streaks of sobriety this year and I've been making a lot of positive physical changes in terms of exercise and eating. I went to a cornhole event (bean bags for some) and drank that day. When I returned from vacation I drank the day we got back. Honestly, I knew that was going to happen. During vacation I was just confronted with people drinking and having fun for almost a whole week. While I didn't drink at all during, it was kind of like an accumulation of frustration from the week that I could be "relaxing" with some beers like they were. Except when I got back I drank a fifth of vodka over the course of an afternoon. So I suppose that would be my proof, once again, that I can't "relax" responsibly. Obviously I paid the price for that on Saturday physically and mentally. Yesterday and today I'm back to feeling well and gotten runs in. Just disappointed. But I'm back here and being honest about it. I hope you're all doing well.

Anna

I had the exact same reaction when I went to a neighborhood party in early recovery. I was miserable, but made it through the evening. But, the next morning I went out and bought wine. I realized I couldn't be around alcohol for a long time, until I felt more comfortable. It can be somewhat disappointing, but you can move forward making the changes in your lifestyle that you need to stay sober.

dpac414

Noam, it's good that you're coming back so quickly after your slip, and that you've acknowledged reasons why you drank. Get back on the horse, adjust your sobriety plan, and keep moving forward. Sounds like you're doing that, so just keep posting and using us for support.

lessgravity

Like Dpac said, you coming back here is the main thing. For many of us, the exact same things happened in early sobriety. For me, it wasn't a vacation but it was a long wedding weekend where I stayed sober among many people enjoying and abusing booze that set me off drinking again upon my return. It's often a scenario that is warned against on the site - how staying sober in the midst of drunkenness somehow triggers us to pick up the bottle again.

But you are back here, not out drinking. That demonstrates you have the desire to get and stay sober. Stick around here, post, read, learn and use this place for the support you need. This place can get you sober, it did for me and so many others here.

brighterday1234

I prefer to call it that one chose to drink again rather than slip-up or relapse. Ultimately that’s what happens and it’s semantics but it’s important to be brutally honest. Learn from it and I learned that I had to and continue to put my sobriety and recovery as no1 priority in my life.

ZIP

You know, I used to drink a lot. And, I needed to drink to have fun at social gatherings. Later, the embarrasment and remorse would kick in...because I always got wasted.

It took me a long time to realize that the after-effects of boozing at parties actually evaporated any good, fun time at the party. My alcohol consumption ruined it all...
Stay the course, friend.

PuckLuck

Sorry you slipped up, but glad you're back.

I can relate so much to your post... Most people's idea of having a drink means having a drink which always amazed me because my idea of having a drink is a fifth of vodka too

january161992

That's the ticket!

add in a program of recovery and you're on your way!

Dee74

welcome back Noam

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Hevyn

It sounds like you learned something valuable, Noam. So good to have you back & discussing what happened.