Last Binge Was Really Bad.
I turned my life around at 40 WL.
I really believe its never too late to start a Chapter Two.
You've got underlying problems sure, and a bad history of trauma - but so did I.
I let nothing hold me back, nothing stand as a reason to keep drinking.
I really think you should do the same.
I hope you will.
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I really believe its never too late to start a Chapter Two.
You've got underlying problems sure, and a bad history of trauma - but so did I.
I let nothing hold me back, nothing stand as a reason to keep drinking.
I really think you should do the same.
I hope you will.
D
I am sure I suffer PTSD symptoms. Quite a few traumatic experiences beginning in childhood. My father was a Coroner and brought me to car crashes and death scenes as a child. I've seen corpses with missing heads at terrible crashes. As a 9 year old I might add. This was the mid 1980's mind you. Wouldn't happen today.
Those things don't even bother me as much as more recent experiences. I fell in Lake Ontario a few years ago. Almost died from hypothermia. Had to bottle it up and pretend it never happened. Made my drinking far worse and was eventually evicted from my apartment because I was causing disturbances. Probably will be evicted from my current place too when this pandemic passes because there are some people who may trigger a reaction in me that will end badly....
However, I am sober and taking a new medication which is doing wonders for me.
I don't see why things need to end badly.
If you're aware of a problem whether it be ADHD or PTSD you can do something about it.
I know..pandemic - but I'm sure Anna and other Canadians will back me up when I say those services are still available.
With teleconferencing you may not even have to leave your home.
There are doctors and therapists who can help.
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If you're aware of a problem whether it be ADHD or PTSD you can do something about it.
I know..pandemic - but I'm sure Anna and other Canadians will back me up when I say those services are still available.
With teleconferencing you may not even have to leave your home.
There are doctors and therapists who can help.
D
WL, you might be the person who is triggering reactions in others. You've been arrested a dozen times in recent memory? You were evicted from your former apt. because you were causing disturbances? You are presently planning on being evicted because others will likely provoke you? I'm going to sound harsh here, but I am going to suggest that one of the main destabilizing factors in your neighborhood, at least one of the factors that show others living nearby that anything goes, is you.
Is there any way that you can check yourself in to a medical setting for a week or two and tell them what your history of trauma is, and tell them what it is doing to you? I sense that you are on the road to getting hurt or killed, or hurting or killing someone else when you are in a trauma induced rage.
Is there any way that you can check yourself in to a medical setting for a week or two and tell them what your history of trauma is, and tell them what it is doing to you? I sense that you are on the road to getting hurt or killed, or hurting or killing someone else when you are in a trauma induced rage.
I am completely fine when sober. It's when I get blackout level drunk that the serious consequences happen, particularly if I drink liquor as opposed to beer. Oddly, all the arrests, injuries, fights, ER trips happened after age 30. It's called Alcoholism and age 30 is when it afflicted me....
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I am sure I suffer PTSD symptoms. Quite a few traumatic experiences beginning in childhood. My father was a Coroner and brought me to car crashes and death scenes as a child. I've seen corpses with missing heads at terrible crashes. As a 9 year old I might add. This was the mid 1980's mind you. Wouldn't happen today.
Those things don't even bother me as much as more recent experiences. I fell in Lake Ontario a few years ago. Almost died from hypothermia. Had to bottle it up and pretend it never happened. Made my drinking far worse and was eventually evicted from my apartment because I was causing disturbances. Probably will be evicted from my current place too when this pandemic passes because there are some people who may trigger a reaction in me that will end badly....
However, I am sober and taking a new medication which is doing wonders for me.
Those things don't even bother me as much as more recent experiences. I fell in Lake Ontario a few years ago. Almost died from hypothermia. Had to bottle it up and pretend it never happened. Made my drinking far worse and was eventually evicted from my apartment because I was causing disturbances. Probably will be evicted from my current place too when this pandemic passes because there are some people who may trigger a reaction in me that will end badly....
However, I am sober and taking a new medication which is doing wonders for me.
You know the part you wrote about falling in the lake, and having to bottle up your emotions. Same as when you were a kid and the things you saw? Or maybe those things affected you later as they were processed. I relate to bottling up the emotions and carrying on. But it builds up in odd ways. This stuff wasn't your fault. I agree with Dee that it's not too late. Maybe different situations but honestly a lot of people are forced to start over in 40s, 50s, 60s. I believe there is help for your ptsd if you reach out.
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247aaonline.comis not shutdown...always open and saved my life many times in the last month.
I am completely fine when sober. It's when I get blackout level drunk that the serious consequences happen, particularly if I drink liquor as opposed to beer. Oddly, all the arrests, injuries, fights, ER trips happened after age 30. It's called Alcoholism and age 30 is when it afflicted me....
Many times I failed and I genuinely figured I'd just die drunk, and it didn't even seem like a big deal. I'd just kind of made peace with it. And that was my life...right up until it wasn't. There was no real reason for me to have hope and I didn't. But it didn't matter, I eventually quit anyway. That was seven and a half years ago and I'm still sober.
I know you don't feel like there's hope for you, and I get that because I felt the same way. Ultimately though you don't even need hope. You just need to be curious enough to see what happens tomorrow. Maybe that's a good start for now, Wastinglife.
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