Wastinglife

I have to get this out of my chest. My mother, an alcoholic in denial, died a couple years ago. She was an alcoholic in denial.
She was also a sociopath. She constantly feed me terrible food. I grew up eating boiled potatoes and ground beef.
That is not in any way appropriate for a parent to just stuff food in their mouth.
My sister actually almost died because my mother force-fed her to.
My mother is dead. I think that is a good thing because she like to always feed infants.
A pattern I was about to expose.
She passed away because of alcoholism.
For some reason she liked to just see little kids and feed them. When they wouldn't eat she would laugh and keep feeding them.
I will expose this.

Dee74

I'm sorry your mother mistreated you.

I'm not quite sure what you mean by 'I will expose this' tho - to the other people in your family do you mean?
Wouldn't they already know?
I think you're far better off to focus on you WL.
Apologies for the bluntness but your mother is dead - she can't hurt you anymore.

How is your recovery going in all of this WL?

D

Lines

Havent seen you here in a while.

Expose your mom, journal it all privately, talk to a therapist. But let it out, so you can begin to heal and find peace. For yourself. The drinking and drug use they are just letting her memory and the past pain live on. You deserve more.

Lines

I just saw this tag line: "I've paid enough. I'm not paying anymore"

Wastinglife

Arsenic was in my blood when I was 4. Got my entire medical history now. 1980, I was just a kid back then

Wastinglife

Both my parents were doctors, but dad was much more busy.
Rarely saw him, but mom always gave him the same food on the plate.
Myself and sister got food that made us sick.
Saw my doctor and he was shocked at the levels of Arsenic on my medical records at age 4.

Surrendered19

That is heavy stuff WL. I am so sorry and that must be very painful. I too was raised by people who were better suited to raise cobras and spiders, not humans. I am nearly 55 and some of that will always be with me. But I became sober and content with living this life best I can when I finally let go of the resentment. I know that is a big ask of you WL, especially when you are trying to remember and piece your past together. I only beg you to fight, fight, fight as hard as you can to not dwell in the past forever. We are going to draw our first and last breaths on this earth only one time and we cannot waste it.
Much peace and healing love to you WL.

Anna

I'm sorry that you are dealing with this. It must be scary to know that you had arsenic in your blood. I don't know if you can expose anything at this time, but try to keep the focus on staying sober and healthy, WL.