Be123

Eight weeks ago today I got really drunk. I felt ill from drinking the day before, and when I got to the pub at 12 was sick after the first mouthful. I then drank in the pub, then at home, passing out about 7.30pm. I was sick a couple more times for good measure. I didn't eat all day.

This was a normal day, rehearsed over and over again for at least 15 years.

I felt so, so low and hopeless. I didn't have a life, I was existing day to day, waiting to get my fix. I felt awful all the time. I had no hope.

Just eight weeks later and I've struggled through the toughest 8 weeks of my life. Circumstances in my life aren't looking great. But I don't feel depressed any more. I feel a range of emotions and they swing, sometimes quite wildly, from anxious to happy to guilt to shame to peaceful. But I'm not dragging along the bottom any more. And I have hope for the future

Thanks everyone on here for all your support, it's been really important to me

Dee74

Congrats B

Lines

Great update. Congrats!

Reid82

Well done on 8 weeks!

D122y

If you feel pretty great after 8 weeks you are way less kindled than me.

It took me the better part of 4 years to really pull out of most of my funk.

I had great memory, but my cooking skill and balance were askew.

If I relapsed, it might take 10 years to recover. I could not make it out.

Scary!

Thanks.

D122y

Coping.....not cooking. Lol.

Be123

Thats a shame dizzy, I liked the idea of the newly sober you struggling to knock up a creme caramel....

fishkiller

Good work be!!

MLD51

Congratulations on 8 weeks! Your "normal day" before you quit sounds a lot like how I was. And your description of your first 8 weeks sounds just like mine, too. I was such a mess before I quit. So depressed, so low, so hopeless. Just repeating the same insanity, day after day. The first 6-8 weeks were hard, so hard, but I felt hope again, and the depression lifted (mostly). There were lots of consequences to deal with, but I felt like I could get through it, and that things were going to be ok eventually. Now, well over 5 years later, things really are ok. It'll just keep getting better if you keep at it!

Be123

Thanks MLD. The depression hasn't lifted completely but it's the presence of hope that makes the difference. If I can go through coronavirus and the break up of my marriage and the first eight weeks of sobriety all at once...how much worse can it get? Things can only get better (I hope!!!!!!!)

StuckInMyHead

Congrats on 8 weeks. Huge accomplishment and while it may seem that other aspects of your life aren’t going in a positive direction, you are taking action to better the one thing that truly matters, yourself. I also think you’ll look back and realize that some of the things you view as negative today may be the very things that needed to change for your wellbeing. Be proud and know that you’ll continue to get stronger and come out the other end a more fulfilled person. Now if I could only take my own advise!  6 weeks for me with cravings the size of Texas!  We’re in this together. Stay strong. 

D122y

I suffered lingering anguish off and on, here and there, for the better part of 4 years while getting to this point of sobriety.

I had horrible anxiety while driving when I quit. When I was drinking I had to maintain a certain level of hungover to feel ok, but things were in a bad way.

These days it is like I have been reborn. I still have bouts of anxiety, but I have had this for so long, and nothing happened, that the anxiety doesn't bother me and then it goes away.

I had to get used to feeling normal and it took a long long long time.

Now normal feels amazing. So life is amazing and new. Since I have this positive energy coming out, I attract positive energy. Plus, I am physically stronger than I have been in around 20 years.

Being a drunk was like being pickled for a while. It has taken some time to unpickle to this stage. They say once a pickle never a cucumber though. I believe it.

I still crave, periodically, but i know better. SR taught me better. I know hell on earth awaits if I ever made the death mistake to relapse.

Booze is poison. The addiction has been unlearned.

Thanks.

Anna

8 weeks is great, Bee. 

gypsytears

Nice post. Congrats on your 2 months of sobriety. 

Abraham

<div>congrats on staying sober for 8 weeks.&nbsp; Cant believe its been 2 months already.</div><div><br></div>

Hevyn

8 weeks! That is wonderful, Be. Proud of you.

Fearlessat50

Really great to hear. Congrats!.

SeaSlug

8 weeks is really great...big changes I am sure!?
I am 3 weeks today :

PhoenixJ

Welcome 123