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Join Date: Oct 2004
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Back at one
Ok, I hate to admit this but I used AGAIN and now I have only been clean for one day. :yelling And the thought crossed my mind that maybe I'm not ready to give up coke yet and maybe I haven't hit the bottom I needed to hit to get me ready, but I know that it is poison that I am putting in my body and I don't want to hurt my body anymore. I know I can do this and I love myself enough to give myself the gift of sobriety. 
I'm worth it and I will fight for it!
Love,
Dixie
I'm worth it and I will fight for it!Love,
Dixie
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Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: fumbling towards ecstasy
Posts: 2,551
((((Dixie))))
Where are you at with NA / AA, hon? I wasted so much time trying to do it by myself and failing misearbly. I didn't get it on the first try. No siree, that would have been too easy.
But when I was finally teachable enough to go to AA and really listen, something miraculous happened. I was able to accept and apply the gifts that are so freely given. Now I go to meetings, I have a sponsor and I work the steps. It works. It really does.
Are you ready to be open, honest and willing? Are you ready to be really, really REALLY done?
Hang in there. We're rooting for you!
jojo
Where are you at with NA / AA, hon? I wasted so much time trying to do it by myself and failing misearbly. I didn't get it on the first try. No siree, that would have been too easy.
But when I was finally teachable enough to go to AA and really listen, something miraculous happened. I was able to accept and apply the gifts that are so freely given. Now I go to meetings, I have a sponsor and I work the steps. It works. It really does.Are you ready to be open, honest and willing? Are you ready to be really, really REALLY done?
Hang in there. We're rooting for you!
jojo
OH SH!T
Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: RICHMOND,VIRGINIA-
Posts: 1,655
HEY DIXIE 
,LIKE JO SAID,ASK FOR HELP.
I SURE CAN'T GO IT ALONE,ALTHOUGH I TRIED FOR YEARS.
YOUR HERE AND YOU KNOW IT'S A PROBLEM,DON'T FIGHT IT,SURRENDER TO IT.
MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU,WE CAN DO IT!!!
...........ted
,LIKE JO SAID,ASK FOR HELP.I SURE CAN'T GO IT ALONE,ALTHOUGH I TRIED FOR YEARS.
YOUR HERE AND YOU KNOW IT'S A PROBLEM,DON'T FIGHT IT,SURRENDER TO IT.
MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU,WE CAN DO IT!!!
...........ted
doing the inside job
Join Date: Sep 2004
Location: planet happy
Posts: 542
I relapes after 11 years.
My body became very sick real fast.
Wheather I hit rock bottom or not, something told me it wasn't
working or I was going nowhere real fast.
With the support from SR I was able to muster enough couage
to attend meetings again and muster enough courage to admitted
my relapes to my home group.
Experincing the lessons that was laid in fornt of me was a trip.
A challenge and almost fun in a way. I was scared [email protected]
But there were many, many good moments and laughters.
Miracles upon miracles happened within the pass few months.
That was a trip and a half...they were real and I wasn't buzzing.
With support of courage, strength, and hope from everybody
I started working the steps again. I'm still scare sometimes.
Recovery is a trip
My body became very sick real fast.
Wheather I hit rock bottom or not, something told me it wasn't
working or I was going nowhere real fast.
With the support from SR I was able to muster enough couage
to attend meetings again and muster enough courage to admitted
my relapes to my home group.
Experincing the lessons that was laid in fornt of me was a trip.
A challenge and almost fun in a way. I was scared [email protected]
But there were many, many good moments and laughters.
Miracles upon miracles happened within the pass few months.
That was a trip and a half...they were real and I wasn't buzzing.
With support of courage, strength, and hope from everybody
I started working the steps again. I'm still scare sometimes.
Recovery is a trip
Member
Join Date: May 2004
Location: east coast
Posts: 2,440
(((Dixie)))
The others said it. You have to surrender. Meetings are so important. I, too, have a sponsor who I am working the steps with. It is the best thing I ever did. You say you haven't hit a bottom yet, or need to hit a lower one. That's not true. This elevator goes to all floors and you can get off wherever you choose. One of the promises in aa is: No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. You don't have to go any lower. Stand tall and take our hands. We'll help you along the way.
Sherry
The others said it. You have to surrender. Meetings are so important. I, too, have a sponsor who I am working the steps with. It is the best thing I ever did. You say you haven't hit a bottom yet, or need to hit a lower one. That's not true. This elevator goes to all floors and you can get off wherever you choose. One of the promises in aa is: No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. You don't have to go any lower. Stand tall and take our hands. We'll help you along the way.
Sherry
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