Misssy2

4 days later...food is just starting to taste normal...
last night I almost had a normal nights sleep
Today I was able to drink a cup of coffee without feeling sick to my stomach
Taking a shower wasn't as physically exhausting
I don't ever have to go thru this again I know this...
Will I?
I hope not..
I do know what to do.
I hope I will do it...because recovering is rough

Plure

Dee74

Glad you're feeling a bit better missy.
Keep reminding yourself you never have to put yourself through this again.

D

Anna

Yes, it is tough and I hope you don't have to go through it again.

Lucinda2

Glad you have turned a corner Misssy2.

Verdantia

Glad you're feeling better, Missy2. I certainly understand how awful withdrawals are; I don't think my body could stand another one, and I will never put it to the test. Wishing you strength and peace on your sober journey.

least

It is rough at first, but gradually gets better day by day. Just don't drink, no matter what!

brighterday1234

DriGuy

What you are describing at 4 days seems like a lot of improvement. At 4 days, I certainly felt better about myself, but I wasn't noticing much else. I would suggest that you concentrate on the glass that is half full, rather than the glass that is half empty. I know, how it is to want it all, because I did. And you can get that too. Well OK, maybe just most all of it, but no one gets it all at once right away. I'm actually happy for you on day 4. You are doing well, I think.

Wastinglife

It is very hard. For me, the hardest part is the insomnia and constant anxiety. Takes me about 5 days minimum to not want to jump off a bridge. I pretty much stay awake for a week.

Unfortunately, despite all the suffering, horrible experiences, it's still not enough to overcome my compulsion to drink. Nothing is. Only I can make that decision and no outside influence can even come close.

ShiftHappens

My life was SO unmanageable and horrendous that drinking was rougher than recovering.

Something changed in me this last time.

Maybe it's the anti d's working, but alcohol finally gave me so much misery that giving it up was a total relief.

Once I got to the point where I was waiting for the store to start selling at 7:00 outside the gas station at 6:45, shaking..

Ugh. Being a slave to that junk was just a pain in the a**

Obladi

Hi Missy

I'm so glad you're on the mend. The withdrawl seems to get gradually worse each time, doesn't it? You're amazing for having come through this, amazing for your persistence. It takes superhuman strength to live in active addiction, don't you think?

I was about to write something to under qualify myself, but doing that doesn't match the message I want to deliver. Just believe me when I say that I get it.

Missy, don't hope. Make a decision, make it firm and unshakable. I distinctly remember telling my roommate in detox any number of years (and subsequent detoxes) ago that I hoped I wouldn't drink again. Even while I was saying that, I heard little warning bells. And here's the thing: they sounded sort of pleasant, soothing. I wouldn't or couldn't acknowledge that at the time, but I did notice right then that "hoping" I was done meant that I wasn't sure. That right there is the insanity of addiction that drew me in time and time again.

I'm not sure how to say this right. Maybe I can't. Maybe trading hope for certainty is a different process for each of us. I'll bet it is. I'm not suggesting you fill yourself with bravado, although maybe that will work for you; it certainly has for others. I am suggesting that you take a careful look at that "hope" to see if it might be transformed into something more active, less passive. Something like determination or faith or commitment? I don't know what your word is... But you get the gist.

I want this for you. I want it for me. I know we can Not Drink. Let's do that!

sugarbear1

You're doing quite well for 4 days sober!!! Keep it up!!!