Coronavirus (COVID 19) Thread part 2
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Originally Posted by August252015 
I had my first meltdown today. I've been pretty even thru all this and my sweet husband taking over the second br as the "War Room" to work while my "office" is the kitchen island has been really cool.
This week, I have been working hours (HOURS) every day to get our restaurant industry group on a national plane with zoom meetings every day, Instagram accounts for every city (15- we had to postpone Boston of course, as it was supposed to start this wk) and on and on. Which has been awesome and I have been valued and valuable.
But. All I have done is be here and take short trips to the grocery down the st. I'm ok with that. But my GAD hit pretty hard on my step daughter's birthday and I just couldn't go to the planned brunch- and it was her 18th and so on. Today was the real meltdown, tho - my husband usually has bfast with her once a week and they are close, and he did go to see her that Sun - but I just can't do dinner tonight like we planned. He planned, really. I get that he wants to see her. But I know she has been spending time with her BF and his parents, I know her mom and bf see things very differently that me about [everything], that the bf has two teenage sons....get where I'm going about social distancing??
I broke down in tears and thank God my husband gets me. It's taken a couple years for him to really "get" what anxiety disorder is and of course she won't really get why I am not going to be there tonight. He's the only person I have been near other than the occasional grocery run at off times. My swim center and yoga place closed and I have been walking outside. But my husband is high up in one of our big public school systems (which btw GA gov just announced all will stay out of school til April 24) so he was exposed a couple weeks before anyone realized what this was going to be.
Itching all over (I get it on my hands when stressed so it has been out of control today), sobbing, a lot of honesty about what I can't handle...I needed to get it all out here!
I've done a lot of online mtgs like others but this really doesn't feel like an "AA topic" if that makes sense. We've even done Al Anon twice.
It's a couple hours later and after a bath and a lot of lotion and real clothes and a little food, I am calmer. A grounding exercise that I know helps is the 5-4-3-2-1 thing.
I'm starting to ramble so that's it for now. Take care everyone.
This week, I have been working hours (HOURS) every day to get our restaurant industry group on a national plane with zoom meetings every day, Instagram accounts for every city (15- we had to postpone Boston of course, as it was supposed to start this wk) and on and on. Which has been awesome and I have been valued and valuable.
But. All I have done is be here and take short trips to the grocery down the st. I'm ok with that. But my GAD hit pretty hard on my step daughter's birthday and I just couldn't go to the planned brunch- and it was her 18th and so on. Today was the real meltdown, tho - my husband usually has bfast with her once a week and they are close, and he did go to see her that Sun - but I just can't do dinner tonight like we planned. He planned, really. I get that he wants to see her. But I know she has been spending time with her BF and his parents, I know her mom and bf see things very differently that me about [everything], that the bf has two teenage sons....get where I'm going about social distancing??
I broke down in tears and thank God my husband gets me. It's taken a couple years for him to really "get" what anxiety disorder is and of course she won't really get why I am not going to be there tonight. He's the only person I have been near other than the occasional grocery run at off times. My swim center and yoga place closed and I have been walking outside. But my husband is high up in one of our big public school systems (which btw GA gov just announced all will stay out of school til April 24) so he was exposed a couple weeks before anyone realized what this was going to be.
Itching all over (I get it on my hands when stressed so it has been out of control today), sobbing, a lot of honesty about what I can't handle...I needed to get it all out here!
I've done a lot of online mtgs like others but this really doesn't feel like an "AA topic" if that makes sense. We've even done Al Anon twice.
It's a couple hours later and after a bath and a lot of lotion and real clothes and a little food, I am calmer. A grounding exercise that I know helps is the 5-4-3-2-1 thing.
I'm starting to ramble so that's it for now. Take care everyone.
s xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ❤️❤️I hear you right down to the itchy hands. And the tears. And a husband who had to learn to understand my panic attacks.
I woke up with you on my mind this morning....thinking about you and all in your industry, and how hard this is. And I know how hard you have been working all week to get the meetings going. It's a lot.
I hope you can have a break this afternoon.
And yes.....what on earth people....so many people are refusing to pay any attention to social distancing.
I actually got an email about all of the events on this weekend around town. I am gobsmacked.
So much love dear August. And many hugs. xxx ❤️
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Take care August, I know that GAD feeling well and it’s not fun but hope you can relax, take a bath, do some meditation and find a little respite x
I just went onto a supermarket site to see if I could order anything or see what it’s opening hours were and there is a landing banner that says “website is busy and there is a queue to even get in the shopping part of the website” I was advised it would be roughly 40 minutes to access the site and I was number 45,307 in the queue!
I just went onto a supermarket site to see if I could order anything or see what it’s opening hours were and there is a landing banner that says “website is busy and there is a queue to even get in the shopping part of the website” I was advised it would be roughly 40 minutes to access the site and I was number 45,307 in the queue!
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Same here Mantalady, I didn't stockpile either but now need to do a good supermarket shop yet the queues are horrendous.
Thank you Dee for your lovely post.
Such strange times we are in. I am just trying to get us all to do the best we can, not drink, eat healthily and exercise and get fresh air. We are lucky as live in a remote ares so can just wander up the fields etc.
I'm still struggling with my mental health tbh but staying positive. Hope everyone else is staying safe and sober and positive.
Thank you Dee for your lovely post.
Such strange times we are in. I am just trying to get us all to do the best we can, not drink, eat healthily and exercise and get fresh air. We are lucky as live in a remote ares so can just wander up the fields etc.
I'm still struggling with my mental health tbh but staying positive. Hope everyone else is staying safe and sober and positive.
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It feels to me like those of you in Scotland are where we were bit ago....people have raided the shelves etc. But it is beginning to even out a bit here....I mean I can't get a grocery delivery for a few days, but I can book them. Amazon Fresh is the easiest option for me right now, in case that helps anyone else. s xx
s xx
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Sayitbruh, I’m sorry what you are going through. So glad your therapist recommended his site as a resource. Can you do virtual counseling maybe through Zoom or Skype with your therapist? I work in a field where I get involved in medical treatment and it’s been challenging everywhere. Many physical therapists are doing some sort of virtual PT and doctors are encouraging telemedicine/video evaluations. Maybe there are some options you could talk to your doctor about. I know it’s not ideal. If the treatment you require is “essential” and needs to be done face to face, can you persuade your doctor and find a different doctor who will recognize this and agree to treat you?
This is such a crazy time! Just know that you can get through this sober. This will pass eventually just like every historical Pandemic, war, depressions and recessions have passed. We all need to physically distance and isolate ourselves but we should be socially connecting more than ever and as much as possible. We are lucky to be able to do this online through technology and support groups. I hope you keep coming here. Just know that no good can come from drinking during this time. It will make things worse. It will weaken your immunity.
Can you get into a self care/self compassion routine each day? I start most of my mornings coming to SR and visiting the Gratitude thread, which I end my day with as well. The meditation center I was going to is now doing classes through Zoom. There are also tons of YouTube yoga and meditation videos and other mindful apps. I am a runner and I signed up for a “virtual” running event that is donating proceeds to help COVID 19. I’ve been hearing about virtual Peloton challenges.
I am working remotely during the day as is my husband and our son is also online schooling so things are a little crazy but we are getting out to go for walks at lunch and after our work/school hours.
Art is another idea if you are into that. I have been spending more time painting rocks and recently found a mandala rock painting book.
Stay strong. We will all get through this
This is such a crazy time! Just know that you can get through this sober. This will pass eventually just like every historical Pandemic, war, depressions and recessions have passed. We all need to physically distance and isolate ourselves but we should be socially connecting more than ever and as much as possible. We are lucky to be able to do this online through technology and support groups. I hope you keep coming here. Just know that no good can come from drinking during this time. It will make things worse. It will weaken your immunity.
Can you get into a self care/self compassion routine each day? I start most of my mornings coming to SR and visiting the Gratitude thread, which I end my day with as well. The meditation center I was going to is now doing classes through Zoom. There are also tons of YouTube yoga and meditation videos and other mindful apps. I am a runner and I signed up for a “virtual” running event that is donating proceeds to help COVID 19. I’ve been hearing about virtual Peloton challenges.
I am working remotely during the day as is my husband and our son is also online schooling so things are a little crazy but we are getting out to go for walks at lunch and after our work/school hours.
Art is another idea if you are into that. I have been spending more time painting rocks and recently found a mandala rock painting book.
Stay strong. We will all get through this
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Thank you for the beautiful poem Dee!
Venuscat, thank you for the AmazonFresh idea.
August, sorry what you are dealing with with work and the anxiety. That’s a lot. I know you are strong though and you will get through it!
Venuscat, thank you for the AmazonFresh idea.
August, sorry what you are dealing with with work and the anxiety. That’s a lot. I know you are strong though and you will get through it!
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Originally Posted by MantaLady
No delivery slots available from any supermarket that delivers to my area for at least 6 weeks, no slots for click and collect either. Now the supermarkets have implemented a limit on people being in the store the queues to get in and shop are ridiculous. I am getting worried now as I didn’t stockpile and have only been shopping once a week for the past 3 weeks. This is forcing me to have to go driving round many shops tomorrow to try and get what I need which I really don’t want to have to do. I am really angry with those that are not staying home acting like nothing is happening and those that stockpiled and hoarded as this is why things are in such a mess. Just needed to get that out!! x
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I also found a great distraction. I've been checking on live cam to see what's going on around the world. Since we are stuck at home, it's a great way to at least what others are doing. Helps me to feel I am not so alone. John
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Originally Posted by venuscat
It feels to me like those of you in Scotland are where we were bit ago....people have raided the shelves etc. But it is beginning to even out a bit here....I mean I can't get a grocery delivery for a few days, but I can book them. Amazon Fresh is the easiest option for me right now, in case that helps anyone else. s xx
s xxThanks! I hope you and everyone else here is safe and well
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I loved the opening post Dee.
I have to go to work at the shelter today and I must admit my anxiety is through the roof. I live with someone who is 72 and a lung cancer survivor and I am no spring chicken myself. I am far more worried about getting him sick than getting sick myself.
Our governor put a shelter in place order on Monday but I am I deemed an "essential employee".
Taking as much precaution as possible. I am very part time these days and only do one shift a week so I need to suck it up and do it.. that's what nurses and doctors do.
I have to go to work at the shelter today and I must admit my anxiety is through the roof. I live with someone who is 72 and a lung cancer survivor and I am no spring chicken myself. I am far more worried about getting him sick than getting sick myself.
Our governor put a shelter in place order on Monday but I am I deemed an "essential employee".
Taking as much precaution as possible. I am very part time these days and only do one shift a week so I need to suck it up and do it.. that's what nurses and doctors do.
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Originally Posted by JScatt
Hi Venus! I've been trying to use Amazon Fresh for my mom but there is NEVER any delivery days available...how is that working out for you?
Thanks! I hope you and everyone else here is safe and well
Thanks! I hope you and everyone else here is safe and well
It is all of us having to be at home that has panicked people, and not wanting to go out....so if everyone buys groceries for at least 2 weeks that is going to cause problems.
Of course, more than likely it is the people buying in bulk for whatever reason. Sigh. Please stop.
s xx
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Bless you and stay safe Carlotta xx
Just went out at 8pm and the whole village was out banging on saucepans, cheering and clapping and setting off fireworks to say thank you to all the healthcare workers who are risking everything for all of us. My village is small and we are scattered all across a big valley with little bunches of houses here and there right on the moors. It was fantastic to hear the cheers bouncing off the valleys and I am so glad so many people got of their sofas out into the chilly dark evening to give thanks xx
Just went out at 8pm and the whole village was out banging on saucepans, cheering and clapping and setting off fireworks to say thank you to all the healthcare workers who are risking everything for all of us. My village is small and we are scattered all across a big valley with little bunches of houses here and there right on the moors. It was fantastic to hear the cheers bouncing off the valleys and I am so glad so many people got of their sofas out into the chilly dark evening to give thanks xx
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Originally Posted by venuscat
It's the only one that does work for me....it is giving me availability 2 days from now, as I look. Prime Now just has no times available at all. And now Instacart is backed up until Monday.
It is all of us having to be at home that has panicked people, and not wanting to go out....so if everyone buys groceries for at least 2 weeks that is going to cause problems.
Of course, more than likely it is the people buying in bulk for whatever reason. Sigh. Please stop. s xx
It is all of us having to be at home that has panicked people, and not wanting to go out....so if everyone buys groceries for at least 2 weeks that is going to cause problems.
Of course, more than likely it is the people buying in bulk for whatever reason. Sigh. Please stop.
s xx
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I can understand why people buy in bulk if they have families. If I had kids, I'd kinda freak out and buy as much as I could too. I'd think of my kids first too, before what others' need. As far as single people like me hoarding stuff, that's just being selfish. John
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Originally Posted by 2muchpain
I also found a great distraction. I've been checking on live cam to see what's going on around the world. Since we are stuck at home, it's a great way to at least what others are doing. Helps me to feel I am not so alone. John
Edit: never mind I think I found it. Earthcam? Probably similar at least
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Welcome, and keep posting sayitbru12. This site has been a lifesaver for me, moreso now during these very troubling times. I'm a little over 3 months sober and doubt I could have done it without the support I have found here. Really lovely people. We get it. 
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Well done Shifthappens. I remember your early posts when you were struggling. You have done so well. This virus is a curved ball for all humanity and an extra challenge for addicts. I guess the same rules apply. One day at a time and stick to the rules.
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